Honestly me..

2012-01-28T19:29:00.000+08:00

just wanna say 'im sorry' to whoever it is that wants it from me.
im sorry im sorry im sorry..

i have broken someone's heart and believe me i feel very very bad about it.
but that's just me, running away from reality.
i hope that person understands..

16th dec 2011 @ Clarke Quay

2011-12-17T02:09:00.000+08:00

Met up with my poly frens for dinner at Clarke Quay!
we were planning to eat at Ma Maison but no booking is allowed and usually the place is full and so we ended up eating at TCC where there were lesser crowds and more peaceful haha
I like what i ate and what i drank (berry smoothies mmmmm)
And as usual birthday presents for the december babies (advance for me & belated for xw)
im glad she was back in SG so im not alone being the dec baby haha
i love the small pink bag they gave me^^ i think QL picked the colour and pattern and stuffs. good choice indeed lol
we camwhored abit with the iphone. that was fun.
and we walked around CQ cos there were flea markets going on.
the four of us bought 4 earstuds cos they were cheaper if we bought in bulk purchases. so 1 = $5
and along the way i found a stall selling t-shirts but they're not just ordinary t-shirts.
there's a sort of a light-thingy attached to the front of the shirt with different pics and patterns.
what's interesting is how the 'thing' reacts to the beat of the music that the owners of the stall were playing.
so called the 'thing' was flashing with colourful lights along with the beat.
its the first time i came across such t-shirts. i wanted to ask how much but i was afraid its expensibuh.
the kind of shirts are awesome for clubbing maybe.
this can be an osm present too! (hmm thinking)
Anyway back to the topic.
So we finished walking and decided to eat ice-cream! so we went to one of these popular ice-cream shop (forgot the name :/) and i loved the Cheesecake flavoured ice-cream yum yum
and we camwhore abit more. actually we needed a group pics that's all haha
then it was time to go home.
and it was hectic on the bus otw home.
dun wanna explain about it haha just know that it was a first kind of experience haha

oh well sleepy, shall end it here. GOODNIGHT!

2011-12-05T22:58:00.001+08:00

no one takes me seriously.

i dunno why.

i hate this.

there's something missing .. there's always something missing in this heart of mine.

i won't know until i find it .. this might /just/ take some time ..

i will wait .. i've always been playing the waiting game since forever anyway ..

i should sleep .. no wait, cry myself to sleep maybe ..

bye.

2011-11-24T19:56:00.002+08:00

AHHHHHHH i miss this blogspot of mine ^^

yes i still love my super junior (thanks to jongwoon oppa~)

he reminded me of why i love SJ.

should i continue updating here ? hmm ..

we'll see..bye!

2009-08-07T21:28:00.001+08:00

my new LJ blog !
not done up yet cos im still finding better skins ..
blogger is still better in terms of blogskins ..
but LJ is where my suju fandom belongs .. LOL

2009-07-29T15:59:00.004+08:00

ICONs tat i made ! Feel free to take or u can request from me to change the name to watever name u want ^^
It's a new hobby after GIFs ..
And making videos is also another hobby of mine. Well so far, i made 2 videos & they are so-so cos im using watever program tat i hav in my com. Dun really like it cos i can't place the subs at the position tat i wanted ..
And im still thinking, whether to make a Yesung/YeBum bday video (since both bdays are a few days apart) .. i have to think abt wat to put in the video .. whether i shld just make photos slides or cuts from videos. If it's the latter, i hav to get the videos tat i want cos i dun hav tat many & mostly are old vids .. hav to DL the entire video just so i cld get a cut from it ..
so im still thinking but there isn't tat much time ..
and i would love to upload the video on his bday itself ^^

oh yah, he's sick right now .. i hope he gets well soon !

2009-06-10T13:14:00.003+08:00

im SOooo in L.O.V.E wif this song ---<3---> Love119 by K.Will feat MC Mong
*sings 'P.L.E.A.S.E .. ne sarangeun emergency'

K.will is a really really great singer OMG .. im in love wif all his songs
he can sing LIVE really really well, especially when he hits his high notes! full of power .. ^^
well at least for him, i can truly say i like his voice first, then his looks ^^

2009-06-08T19:44:00.007+08:00

Super Junior will be having their Super Show II Asia Tour Concert soon !
Im just excited 'cos it will be the first for me to spazz along wif the rest when the time comes when they hav their concerts in different cities !!
Im hoping & praying tat they will come to Singapore .. please please please please ..
If they will do one in Malaysia, it'll most probably be in KL.
Seriously, i hav no idea how i'll ever go la ..
U wont just be spending on the concert ticket, but also the travelling costs to KL.
I mean, i nvr even been to KL before. Johor is as far as i've been ..
Hmm but it will be fun thou .. 'cos i know i wont be going alone .. since i can go wif my other e.l.f.s !! love u guys!

So it'll be SO much better if they come to Singapore .. save me all the trouble to travel so far ..
*jebal (please in korean) LEE SOO MAN .. i beg u !
Let them come to Uniquely Singapore ..

Can u imagine if they EVER come ?!?!
I get to meet them in person, wont tat be great?
Sigh .. enuf of my daydreaming ^^

2009-05-26T21:07:00.003+08:00

ahh im so sleepy rite now ..
its good thou .. sleep & wake up early .. like other normal ppl ..
unlike last time when i had no job, i become so lazy .. sleeping at 2 to 3am in the morning & only wake up when i FEEL like waking up .. lol!

anyway, i just wanna say sumthing tat i encountered this morning on the train to work ..
there's this college girl tat was sitting beside me .. she looked like a normal girl, fidgeting wif her phone & listening to music ..
i tink she's korean cos she has this gadget tat she took out .. not sure how to explain it ..
at first glance, it looked like a DS but its not .. there's a mini keypad instead ..
it looked like a netbook but then it's too small & she was using it to listen to music ..
i saw korean characters on the screen as well as on the keypad itself ..
the thing itself looked all worn out anyway ..
so i guessing why i hav nvr seen it b4, cos maybe its not sold here in spore.
Maybe its their very own korean brand gadgets ..

the MAIN thing i wanna say is when she was listening to the music ..
she was DANCING all to herself, while sitting down ..
and i KNEW wat she was dancing too cos it was SO OBVIOUS la !

She was dancing to SDB's 'Saturday Night' or maybe 'Crazy' (??) anyway, both of the songs have similar dancesteps ..
The other song was SNSD's 'GEE' !!

i didn't tink of looking at the others, whether they were looking at her dancing all by herself .. i wish she wld stop cos she was kinda embarassing, just by glancing to the side ..
LOL! wat a morning !

2009-05-15T14:51:00.004+08:00

finally i have a freaking job!!
but its just 1-2 mths admin asst temp, depending on how fast i learn and how much i can finish ..
a job means lesser time on the internet, lesser time on suju (sob sob)but finally more money on my hands !! but its gonna take some time of cos ..

u hav no idea how much i wanna spend but i cant since there's no money .. i need more clothes & shoes etc..

i wanna buy suju's ver c once i hav the money .. but for now, i feel guilty tat i DL-ed their extra 4 songs but i PROMISE to buy their album !! I want to buy anyway cos' the cover looks cool & there's like collage of pics of them which looks nice .. might as well buy the 3rd one to make it my collection .. wahhaha

2009-05-12T00:58:00.004+08:00

Ahh suju's repackaged album ! but somehow it's suppose to be Ver.C instead ..
i already have Ver.A & Ver.B .. someday i'll get Ver.C .. not now 'cos no money ! lol
its sad that the new single from tat album was leaked b4 its official online release ..
there were also pic caps of the MV.. no one thot it was leaked pics until the song was leaked the next .. finally the MV was leaked too but they only showed like 14secs from the chorus ..

all these leaked news just show how popular suju is !
but i hope no more of this thing .. i HATE whoever leaked it in the 1st place ..

Anyway, just would like to give a shout out to Andy-shi .. Happy Birthday!

2009-04-30T21:05:00.002+08:00

Just felt like toking abt my cat .. my lazy cat tat sumtimes i love & hate, depending on my mood ..
Been taking care of him since birth .. wonder how his siblings are doing?? Haven seen them around at all when my evil mum secretly threw them away .. grrr
Anyway, its been a long time but i really cried when she did tat cos my fav was gone !!
So we had to settle wif ginger .. my mum was disappointed tat she kept a 'he' & nt a 'she' .. wat's the used if ginger was a 'she' .. get pregnant & then threw the innocent kittens again ?!

I wish my cat was as tamed as some other cats tat i've seen ..
Ginger is just one lazy cat like Garfield .. really ..
Actually i like Garfield ! I wan ginger to be as fat as garfield !!!

I like how ginger knows who is who ..
If he hears my mum's voice, its a automatic out of the house cos my mum doesn't want ginger to be sleeping anywhere near the couch or chairs where clothes can get all tat FURS!
It's a definite 'no no' .. who likes it anyway ..
Also, when i leave my room door ajar & when ginger feels hungry after sleeping the whole day, he would go in my room & the door will move or creak open ..
when he sees me looking at him, he will go, 'meooowww' = ' i wan to eat!' LOL
But sumtimes i close the door completely, so tat means he can't go in ..
but he will just stand by the door & wait til i make a noise or comes out of the room ..

Funny thing is, he will ONLY ask from me for food ..
Since mum is the scary one (from ginger's point of view), he wouldn't even DARE ask from her ..
Anyway, im always the one tat feeds him so there's no point in asking anyone else in the house .. haha

I love my cat .. i hope he lives til his old age (unless i cant afford to take care of him anymore .. who knows ..)

2009-04-19T22:36:00.004+08:00

im feeling so sucky today .. just finish crying .. might start crying again later b4 i go to sleep ..
i thot today was a good day at least cos i looked forward to today since a few days ago ..

just a sudden bad mood going on now ..
since afternoon, i was angry abt a thing .. then sad abt another thing .. then disappointed at another thing ..

the last maddest thing happened just now .. tat was the last straw i guess ..

so i burst it all out .. by crying .. hate all these sucky moods .. im suprised im so moody all of a sudden ..

I need Yesung oppa to cheer me up now ............................

thanks oppas! i feel better seeing u guys like tat!

Yesung: susu fighting !

2009-04-06T00:26:00.002+08:00

arghzz hate tat my photobucket a/c has exceeded its bandwidth limit .. they will only like reset my usage to zero on the 11th .. haa i didn't even know there's such thing .. so had to switch to imageshack for now ..
so dun be suprised to see a lot of my pics & gifs in my blog being replaced by tat photobucket image .. using blogger to upload pics just takes up too much time ..

anyways, ever since both my grandparents passed away, upcoming holidays like hari raya puasa & hari raya haji will be different cos usually we wld all gather at my grandparents' house .. nt sure how its gonna be this yr ..

but we all make it a point to go there the 1st sat of every mth to do some reading of prayers (haa nt sure how to say it in english) .. so last sat, we did the very first gathering, only wif our close families ..

it was nice to see everyone there ..
we all ate dinner & was decided tat each mth, we wld all eat something different each time ..
will definitely look forward to tat !

2009-04-03T00:15:00.003+08:00

i've been having a stiff neck since months ago .. but i only told my mum abt it last nite .. cos i couldn't take the pain any longer ! having difficulties moving my neck tat much ..
my mum was like, "why only now u tell me??" hee .. only thot abt it just recently

so she helped to rub & massage my neck wif some ointment wif tat strong smell .. but the massage was so shiok, at the same time painful like mad !
wat do i do wifout my ibu .. thank you mummy !

sigh i hope the pain lessens .. better yet be gone !
if not, i dunno wat else to do (ottoke?!)

2009-03-25T22:21:00.002+08:00

my nenek's death was pretty much a shocked to everyone ..
apparently the cause of death was congestive cardiac failure ..
i would say she died peacefully during her sleep ..
at least its nt some disease or so .. she was 78 years old
the last time i saw her was at the hospital, 3 to 4 mths ago i tink ..
it wasn't anything serious .. just tat her heartbeat was slower than usual & tat she had no appetite to eat .. as far as i know, she was discharged the next day ..

i do feel regretful, tat i didn't visit her as much .. will only go her house when they asked me to .. however, im thankful tat i had a great nenek .. she's nt the nagging demanding type but more of the quiet type thou .. i always liked her cooking, esp her bergedil .. gonna miss her cooking ..
so my dad, aunts & uncles are considered orphans now ..

but yesterday was still fine .. even though i was SO sleepy cos i was awake like 7 plus in the morning .. everyone was there ..
get to see my long-time-no-see cousins whom i love to hang out wif cos they are fun & cos we were very close when we were all very young .. lots of memories esp at our nenek's house itself ..
i get to play wif my cute cousin aiman whose nickname is ahpek cos he looks so chinese ..

we will all gather there again this sunday for more prayers .. so get to meet them there again !

also not to forget my gif of the day:

oh how can i forget my mr. kim ..
he's laughing shyly cos he said tat he won't watch tv again if he gets edited in the show .. haa cute

2009-03-19T23:39:00.004+08:00

Wee ! Got my Version A of the album from CoolKTime .. most probably they ordered from Yesasia.com .. if u order Ver. A, they will give a random posters of the boys & i got this one (below). Too bad there isn't my fav guy in it .. anyway, the poster is damn wide !

If i get the Ver. B, the free poster is the one below which i want badly !!

I kinda ordered the 2 diff versions but from 2 diff sources .. i thot of just buying from the one tat can give me the fastest but i thot of buying both, then sell the one tat i like the least .. the differences to the albums are tat they hav a diff album cover + the free poster of cos ..
i just want the group poster tat's all ..
when i sell the other album, i might/might not sell wif the poster ( i can always keep both the posters) .. hee

2009-03-14T01:13:00.003+08:00

what a crazy day today was .. was SO desperate to get KBS 2 TV to work online since i dun hav Starhub cable ..
i needed to see SJ's singing 2 songs live! (but 1 pre-recorded) ..
im sure im not the only one so basically abt 10,000 were apparently watching the same thing as me ..
KBS finally approved my membership so tat means i could watch it on the website itself but since 10,000 over ppl were watching all over the world, it was lagging like hell !

i wanted to cry & shout for goodness' sake ! wanna noe why?
cos the channel wasn't lagging AT ALL when i watched 2 diff singers singing .. but when it came to SJ's turn, tadah LAGGED .. urgh !
wat to do .. they insist on putting SJ till the end of the show to prevent ppl from leaving after they performed ..

it was fine cos i have hard-working & efficient ppl (elfs from over the world) to help upload the videos on YT !

then came the release MV for their Album Title Song, 'Sorry Sorry' .. so cool to watch !

then had to wait 2.5 hrs (which was fast btw) for their very own live radio show, with the rest of the members as guests .. i get to see real-time video at their radio show of cos! thanks to KBS FM ..

fuh ! wat a day for me ..

this is b4 they performed .. this music show likes showing guests at their backstage room ..
& my dorky Mr. Kim (e one near in the middle). His coolness turned into dorky as always .. ILU!
one of them is showing this piece of paper wif writing, congratulating the MC for being a daddy .. so sweet of them !

2009-03-09T15:53:00.003+08:00

Today was the release of their Album Title Song, 'Sorry Sorry' .. excitedness !!
woke up 9.30 today & i thot abt continuing my sleep again but i suddenly remembered abt the song release .. got me excited so forget abt sleep !
Anyway, its better for me to be awake early in the morning cos i wouldn't want to get used to waking up & sleeping late thou ..

Now i will be waiting patiently for their MV release or their comeback perf itself !! Whichever is first !

Can't wait to get the album !

2009-03-04T19:30:00.002+08:00

today they showed a teaser of pics ..
not sure whether its similar pics to their album cover ..
anyway, i made them into gifs which is easier to see all of 5 pics ..

they all looked cool !
other ELFs are waiting for more .. maybe MV teaser ..
tat would be an added bonus !
album will be on Mar 12 & their comeback perf is on Mar 13, Fri !

rite now my dear mr.kim is at thailand since yest wif 2 other members,
doing their CFs (commercial) there !
he looks SO fresh wif his new haircut & blue blue shirt !

had to share this :

hilarious to see their reactions when on a rollercoaster!
i tink im more excited than scared like 2 of them!

2009-02-28T13:47:00.002+08:00

this morning, my bro went off for brunei ! for his training there ..
gud la, he's first time on a plane has been achieved while i have not !
I heard his phone alarm twice! but i was the one tat was awake to wake him up instead -_-
good thing thou .. i will NOT be suprised if he wakes up late for an impt thing like this ! (just like when he woke up late for his 2nd yr of poly last exam .. & eventually had to take the exam again in 3rd yr)

suju's 3rd album might only be released at the end of march !
today's their MV filming of their title song ..
im excited to be in the process of all this .. u noe why ?

cos when i only started knowing them, they already had their 1st & 2nd album + they already debut with their sub-groups .. so at tat time, i could already get a hold of their songs, watch their MVs etc ..
but this is the 1st time im anticipating their 3rd album together wif the rest of ELFs everywhere!

next week we all get to see their teaser of their MV maybe ? or just the song .. nt sure but i cant wait !

Pic of the day :

ryeowook == yesung == kangin

its funny ..
tat dance tat he (donghae) was doing ..
its actually my fav guy (yesung) way of dancing ..
he likes to interrupt ..

2009-02-17T16:26:00.005+08:00

something bad happened to my com last nite !!
i got a trojan 'stuck' to my com .. argh angry when i tink abt it ..
cos i foolishly/stupidly/naively downloaded it ..
but tats cos it happened so fast tat i couldn't tink properly ..

its a fake spyware remover tool called System Security .. do take note guys ..
its a pop-up & started giving warnings tat my com has all sorts of viruses & trojans ..
i really thot tat was for real so i foolishly/stupidly/naively downloaded it ..

As stated in http://www.2-spyware.com/remove-system-security.html :
Application present itself as a reliable spyware remover, but in fact it is rogue application that may come to computer via fake video codec installation. System Security will start showing annoying pop-ups with false information about virus infections and serious system risks in order to sell itself. Showing these notifications application requests you to buy license to clean system but it doesn’t clean it after that. System Security is a parasite that wants you to spend your money on it, don’t get on this trick. It is very important to uninstall this parasite to prevent your own serenity.

i didnt fall for it since i hav to purchase it online, meaning using a credit card which i dun hav duh !
and the sucky thing is tat, there isnt any uninstallation for the program ..
it keeps popping up making my com even slower than ever ..

in order to get rid of it, i had to download 2 diff & trusted spyware remover + a clean-up tool ..
gud thing there's help available online to help remove it step by step ..

its only a success after the third time .. the first two i kinda missed the aftermath clean-up tat i hav to do to get rid of the thing completely .. so even after the 2 spyware removers detected viruses & trojans & removed them, the stupid program was still around .. like nothing happened .
fuh .. im just glad tat its gone .. at least now i hav these applications to help keep my com safe & i promise myself to constantly do checkups for this com !!

look at him laugh .. he sounds cute when he laughs but too bad u cant hear it !

2009-02-13T00:42:00.003+08:00

Today's Friday the 13th .. and guess wat? another friday the 13th next mth too !
Two in a row .. well u dun get tat often ..

Im still jobless .. dun envy me being at home all the time ..
im tired of this! i wanna work .. really (chongmal !)
and i dun wanna use up the electricity being at home all the time (since i paid for it!)

hate tis coming sat since it V day .. watever wif tat!
But feb 14 is also jah's sis bday! Hapy bday in adv!

Pic of the day :

Its not always u see him like tat ..
well his side profile is nt tat great but heck care ! I still luv him..

2009-02-05T11:00:00.006+08:00

credits: SapphirePearls

Their 3rd album is coming soon !
The earliest date for the album release would be in March !
But it can still be delayed till a few mths later .. gosh i hope not !

Can't wait !

Pic of the day:

cant take my eyes off him........

2009-01-31T23:26:00.004+08:00

watched Bride Wars wif dijah today!

nice to watch .. i cried a bit thou .. haa

my legs are SO tired ! we walked to all parts of spore today ..

from somerset --> dhoby ghaut .. took the nel to clarke quay

then clarke quay to all the way to city hall

almost going to bugis from city hall but we just ended going home instead ..

i bought another watch to my collection! a blue one! buy 1 get 1 free some more!

still looking for other converse shops so tat i can make use of my vouchers tat i got for my bday!

pic of the day:

well more like pics of the day .. i wanna get those specs !

2009-01-28T16:59:00.014+08:00

well .. to make my blog less BOring, i shall upload some pics from the zoo !
warning: the pics wont hav tat much of animals in it even thou we went to the zoo .. wahhaa

already excited to take a pic at the entrance !

on the tram we go !

love tis picture !

me & Jah (and giraffe !)

me & steph

me & james

dinner @ seoul garden .. annyonghaseyo

dunno y i had tat face .. wahha

tat was fun. they say, the more the merrier .. but even thou it was just the 4 of us (althou i would prefer a lot more to tag along), we still had fun !

PIC of the DAY:
my dear mr. kim is just too cute !

2009-01-22T15:05:00.004+08:00

went jB wif dijah and her parents yesterday .. after SO long .. the last time was when i was really really just a kid .. cant remember much ..

moreover, the immigration area changed location .. so i couldn't even recall anything familiar .. when we were off and reached kranji, it was all up to them .. cos i dunno wat to do next .. like for eg, i dunno wat bus u shld take etc. There were just a lot of stuffs tat i dunno and i kept asking jah wat to do next, where to go etc. haa .. embarassing i noe ..

so far, my phobia of going Jb has lessen .. as long as i go there wif a lot of ppl instead of going there alone u noe ..

finally when we reached there, we just stroll around city plaza (oops its city square!) .. if jah's parents dun really follow us around, i would hav probably shopped for a lot of stuffs .. haa .. so i almost did not buy anything back .. until when we about to go back .. i thot they wanted to get donuts to bring home .. so i took tat opportunity to get some stuffs .. and so i bought 3 t-shirts which i like very much! and its only 30 ringgit altogether ! Tat's like $5 per shirt which is cheap! so cant wait to wear them ..

and i bought henna too ! already did my left hand and there are some writings on the wrist .. ' Yesung ♥ ' hehe .. love it until it eventually fades away ..

2009-01-19T21:34:00.002+08:00

last sat, we went to the zoo! me, jah, steph & james .. andy was supposed to go too but tat morning, he informed me tat he was having a hangover -_- '' sigh .. he shldn't hav drank a lot the previous nite la ..
tat morning, we ate at Macs at bb .. gud thing we managed to eat the breakfast meal ..
anyway, thot we were supposed to take a bus from cck but steph could drive (just found out on tat day itself) and she offered to use her dad's car to drive us there .. wif the help of james, we could get there easily ..
it was definitely fun hanging out at the zoo but it was also tiring on my legs esp my right ankle .. just waiting patiently for pics to be uploaded !!
dinner we ate at Seoul Garden @ CWP .. we were all famished but i was particularly thirsty ! we sat rite close to the drinks section and bcos james sat on the outside while i sat on the inside, i had no prob asking him to refill my drink ! hee ..
steph dropped james at the next nearest mrt station and then us girls were on our own .. we were almost lost since steph missed the exit twice ! but somehow we managed to get back at bb but from a longer route ..
then me and jah got a free ride home using steph's bf's car ! he was driving damn fast la .. like 100 km/hr .. not kidding u .. thanks anyways for the free ride thou i nvr asked wat's her bf's name .. hee

ps: i named this post excursion cos when steph bf heard tat we went to the zoo, he thot of us going on an excursion like primary school kids .. hahha

pps: didn't really get to see how her bf looks like .. but his side profile kinda reminded me of Tony from H.O.T .. google if u curious to noe how Tony looks like .. haa

tats it !

2009-01-12T23:51:00.003+08:00

finally i changed my blogskin .. been having probs changing it .. so i kept finding the perfect blogskin .. but at the end of the day, i realized tat it need not be the most fancy blogskin .. i only had to find the simplest one and just change the background pic .. im satisfied for now .. haa

2009-01-08T21:08:00.002+08:00

Hey guys ! Just a quick blog today ..

i was sick the past weeks .. im still coughing but its getting better ..

somehow, the past weeks i always feel drowsy and when i stood up, all i wanted to do was just go back to sitting down on the couch and eventually lie down there too .. im thinking its the cough syrup's tat giving me the effects .. and so, i kinda stop eating it since last thurs and im better now ..

anyway, tml will be my official last day of work .. the finance ppl hav finished packing up their stuffs and tml they will go off to SPH toa payoh .. my past four days working there were fun .. especially lunch time ! We will go out somewhere to eat together .. will miss all of them !

after work on friday, i will be meeting up wif my sec school mates ! First time going out after being sick for so long .. cant wait to hav dinner wif them !

Tat's it !
Super Junior Forever !!

2008-12-23T00:12:00.003+08:00

my birthday dinner was an enjoyable one ..

before tat, met up wif dijah & her sis and we went to eat at marina sq ..
both of us planned to watch a movie in the east side initially ..
but since we are already in marina, we watched there instead ..
there was no regrets watsoever when we decided to watch Twilight !
anyway, the movie was starting rite after we bought the tickets ..
totally adored Edward & Bella ! (can't believe i've said tat)

anyway, after tat met up wif my sec skool classmates for dinner at Ramen Ten !
Initially, there were only 5 of us girls .. then cx helped to ask the guys and thank goodness there were at least 2 of them .. andy & james !

walau eh, at first thot andy couldn't come .. then later cx say can come .. then again say he cannot make it .. she was lying to me lor .. it was a suprise when he did came ! the more the merrier anyway .. they bought a cake and they sang the bday song ! nt just me but also for cx, the other bday girl coming up .. and dijah played a prank by adding 2 candles tat couldn't be put off .. i had to blow so hard sia .. even after the fire was put off, and i started blowing at it again, it will re-lit again believe it or not .. but it was fun !

thanks james for ur bday present ! i got a $100 voucher for Converse .. kamsahamida !

tat's it ! im sleepy .. annyong !

2008-12-22T00:26:00.014+08:00

Happy birthday to me !! my wish is for everyone to be healthy & happy alwayz !

Susu got an advance bday suprise from her colleagues last friday !

she kinda expected it .. but not from aliah's carelessness thou ( i.e sending a mass email to every1 except her .. but she managed to get the email since she was seated at her colleague's desk for tat day ^^ ) she didn't want to read it anyway since she wants to be suprised thou !

.. so .. how the heck tat she kinda expected it ?? well, another colleague msn-ed her saying tat she wont be able to celebrate her bday tis friday as she would be out for a meeting .. guess who is tat ? haa .. its Raha .. dun tink she noe tat it was supposed to be a suprise .. nah she dun blame her .. it would hav been great if she had not expected it ..

haa thanks to hannah, she managed to get suprised still, since she distracted her ! she was totally into wat they were toking abt .. she was asking her abt catering stuffs since she wanted to do one for her friends i tink .. they tok abt it b4, so she was not the least bit suspicious abt it ..

then the suprise came ! they came into the office and sang the bday song + the ice cream cake from swensen ! she was in shocked, kept covering her face feeling embarrassed .. she had no idea wat to wish for since her mind went blank for tat few mins .. and there were balloons from swensens too !! colourful balloons ! she gave the purple one to aliah .. the rest is placed on her desk .. haa .. she thanked for the card + ang bao + her fav super junior cd !

her pink meowy card ! nice!

Super Junior CD !!

speaking of which, she was estatic when she saw a super junior poster from Sep issue of Teenage ! her bro got the mag as a goodie bag thingy .. was browsing thru the mag when she woke up in the morning .. saw the free poster and super junior was in it ! Her very first poster of them ! tat's the best bday present ever !

And not to forget her belated present from her poly-mates ! a fossil wallet for women .. luv it !
and last but not least, a santa pooh bear from her bro ! he just came back around 11 plus and she was busy toking to james on the phone (thanks for the bday call !), and her bro kinda hid the bear outside of the house .. gave it to her when it was 12am .. (no wonder he opened the front door for no reason) .. haa ..

guess she has to start thinking abt wat to get for the january babies !! 3 of them altogether ! hmm..

Tat's it !

2008-12-18T00:41:00.002+08:00

just an update:

been going out after work a LOT this last few weeks. and coming home late. not good. been spending a lot too since im out. but i like going out. more pics to take.

coming up:

me birthday ! im gonna be 21 soon ! please come quick. and dijah's gonna b 22 soon. sigh. cant enjoy being 21 together. haa. cant wait to meet up wif her on my bday. meet cx, fad, lili too(hopefully they come along!)
dinner after my bday wif my work frens. cant wait either!

extras:

singapore vs vietnam (2nd leg). tis sunday! anyone going to the stadium so tat i can tag along?.. hee. but dun tink anyone's interested. (BOrinGgg)
stayin home to watch is fine as well. upclose summore! cant wait !

2008-12-03T00:10:00.002+08:00

awww i miss my internet !! finally ..

dun wanna elaborate anymore on why i miss my internet ..

anyway, just came back from bugis ! veryy sleepy on the way home on the bus ..

just in time when i woke up, i was reaching my stop .. initial plan was to SLEEP imme after feeding the cat and relieving myself again in the toilet .. but i wanted to check if i cld use the com .. tis time, had to call the technical helpdesk and it happens to be a wrong password tat i keyed in .. i actually tried my luck by calling them at this time !

even if no one picks up, i thot maybe i cld just get the time it will open so tat i cld maybe called again in the morning .. was so suprised tat they are still operating at tis time ! maybe its a 24-hr hotline .. so im happy now !!

i SO missed youtubing my fav korean boyband .. well i can do so but nt now .. im kinda sleepy sia .. but am waiting for some1 to upload the pics first !

2008-11-28T23:29:00.004+08:00

lunch was at Macs in Queensway shopping centre .. a couple wif their daughter sat down beside our table .. she's so cute btw !

anyway, took a cab back cos it was smouldering hot ! Took a comfortdelgo limo cab .. nt a real limo by the way .. but was super shiok to sit and lean on .. somehow just after lunch, my stomach was acting weird .. couldn't even stand up straight when walking .. was almost in no mood to do werk bcos of the pain in my stomach .. and cannot wait to go home and rest ..

some good and bad news ..
Good news : imy chatted wif me !!
~ saw tat he was online .. (had already customized a colour for him) .. so its obvious .. he didnt show 'busy' so i waited, wif hopes tat he wld chat wif me .. and i didnt hav to wait tat long! it was a short chat but gud enuf for me ! ^^
~ he's overseas u noe .. still feel like he's rite here in spore .. poor thing, he's missing home already .. haa

Bad news : didnt get the full-time job .. :(
~ right after our chat, the boss was online and we chatted and he told me tat im nt getting the job due to recession etc etc .. but he's raising a bit of my rates for dec thou .. im fine wif all tis .. gud thing we didnt tok in person cos i would look weird since i wouldnt be able to hide it .. it sucks honestly cos i hav to start the process all over again .. sigh

TGIF anyways .. waiting for bro to come back ! tis house has been a bit too quiet ..

2008-11-28T00:18:00.003+08:00

today reached home at 11.45pm .. took 143 straight bus home .. damn shiok to sleep sia .. i wanna sleep soon so im gonna make it short ..

so planned wif steph to meet at orchard to so called discuss abt our dec babies gathering (including me ^^) .. someone was supposed to come but didnt (u noe who u are) ..

so it was only me, steph, lili and singhua !
i was like an idiot trying to find taka's mac cos i nvr go there at all la ! not my fault ..
then singhua was dressed up so formally .. thot he came from work or sumthing .. but he had a presentation at skool earlier on .. anyway, he was wearing this men's shoes but the prob wif it was the soles were already torned .. and he kept quiet abt it until we started walking ..

haa .. he was literally dragging his shoes .. but it looked like as if he's limping .. we managed to find a sect in the dept store selling men's shoes and he was lucky enuf to find a pair tat fits and was affordable .. 69.90 !

we ate at Breeks .. had lots of fun wif them .. and we took quite a lot of pics ! Funny thing was bumping into familiar faces at taka .. all happen to be in the same sec school as us but i dun know them at all .. haa .. except for one ! Cannot believe we bumped into faiz and his g/f outside taka .. singhua noticed him first .. he looked the same but now wif longer curly hairs .. haa .. already scolded him since he didn't come for the gathering ..

all in all, we nvr manage to discuss fully on the next gathering cos we ran out of ideas and places to go ! hopefully sumthing .. dec 13 is the preferable date i guess ..

we'll see how .. adios for now

2008-11-24T20:30:00.002+08:00

he's gone now finally .. cos the more he delays the trip, it will be longer for him to return back home ..

happy tat i got a message from him b4 he goes off .. initially wanted to tell him to sms me but the thought nvr came ..

after tea break (even thou i didn't rest during tat break), got a message .. assumed tat it was my mum or aunt cos its always them messaging me all the time .. but it turns out to b imy .. ok fine .. then i thot it wld just b a simple message similar to when we chatted online, telling me to take care of myself .. but there was an extra touch to it .. haa .. *hugs and muacks in it ^^ .. tats SO unlike him .. so yah, very suprised and touched *teared up ..

wanna noe wat i replied ?? haa .. im sure someone wanna noe ^^
honestly, i Did thot of wat i wanted to say b4 he goes off .. just wanna tell him to take care of himself too .. dun stay up too late .. its difficult if he's sick overseas .. then lots of hugss & muackss .. and tat i will miss him .. tat's all !

disappointed ? then too bad .. cos i dun care ! haa!

2008-11-23T00:49:00.003+08:00

Had a class gathering on sat. it was more of celebratin say chiang's bday !! happy bday dude ..
FYI : he used to be quite fat and he was already taller than me .. but all tat army training for 6 mths .. he is so slim now lor ! and i noticed even more tat he was freaking tall ! haa ..

im glad i still made it to the bbq .. cos dijah couldn't make it last min .. was pretty quiet at first cos dun hav her around .. if not, we wld be toking non-stop abt suju !!
most of our classmates came except for the malay dudes & gals and some other tat was forgotten .. oops sorry ..

3 of our teachers were invited .. form teacher of only 1 yr, our accounts teacher and chemistry teacher .. i saw our chemistry teacher on the same bus as me .. but i didn't noe tat she was ging to the same place as me ! so she kinda came at a later time cos she was lost apparently .. haa

i really had fun as the time passed cos i had sumthing tat i could help wif .. while johnny apparently was emo-ing cos he had nothing to do ! haa .. he said tat i am diff now .. last time very quiet and obedient .. now im so loud and bitchy .. cos i kinda like too direct wif them .. but i dun wan them to misunderstand me .. since i know them for 5 yrs leh .. tats why the over-friendliness behaviour ..

quick i wan the photos to be uploaded !

tat's all peeps ..

2008-11-20T00:34:00.002+08:00

he's leaving .. on the midnight train to georgia ..

haa just a classic song tat came to my head b4 writing an entry ..
anyway he's leaving in 3 days' time .. ive actually cried a lot Way before ..
so maybe i wont be tat sad when he's gone .. but god noes ..

im suprised tat he 'gave' me a tag, 'Sweetie' .. (sum of u might not noe but its a tagged.com thingy .. haa .. )
i actually gave him tat first .. tat he's a sweetie .. since i always like to say, '' tats so sweet of him '' etc .. gonna miss him i guess .. ill pray always tat he'll stay safe and healthy .. take care ..

2008-11-17T00:51:00.003+08:00

sum things i wanna say b4 i go to sleep ..
i told myself tat im not gonna care anymore .. as in i dun wanna care abt him since its tiring when he dun reply ..
and i manage to not do silly things, like counting the no. of days since we last chatted etc.
so rite now, i dunno how long i nvr chat wif him online le ..
i noe tat he's leaving soon but i nvr thot of counting the no. of days left (since i already said tat i dun care rite) ..
he was online sat nite .. bt then he was offline .. nvr chatted wif me, bt its okay .. forget abt it ..
so tis 'not gonna care' was going on fine and well ..

so today am online most of the time .. chatted wif bff like normal .. once in a while i will close off our conversatn window .. anyway i appeared as busy so i wont noe who just appeared online rite?
then a window popped up and was so suprised tat its him .. he said wat he needed to say .. and he had to remind me tat he will be going away in 7 days time .. said tat he was busy working .. had no time to enjoy .. and lastly told me to take care of myself no matter wat ..

cant help but cry actually .. so my plan to not care basically failed ..

take care of urself too imy ..

2008-11-16T14:40:00.002+08:00

am excited abt West Coast Plaza (f.n.a Ginza Plaza) cos then i hav somwhere else to hang and buy stuffs at .. there's quite a lot of F&B shops .. rite now most of them are not opened yet .. there's gonna be Starbucks AND Coffeebean ! There's BBQ Chicken ! which i tried and its not bad .. there's also Sushi Tei which i heard from u guys tat its nice ..
they aren't tat many retail shops thou .. damn !

Anyway, my aunt just called .. she said that sum of them are going KL next weekend and i only need to come up wif $110 but i honestly wont hav tat much money left by then .. i cant go since i just remembered tat i hav my sec school gathering next sat .. got chance to go out of Spore and i cant .. damn again !

2008-11-08T21:04:00.002+08:00

Aniyo !!

today met up wif bff cos i've been wanting to eat at Ramen Ten since i've never eaten there yet !!
well now i do ! its really nice, just like wat ive heard from ppl .. also, i was on the search for super junior's CDs !! But to no avail .. its really hard to get any la .. might hav to resort to buying them online i guess ..

tats it !

2008-11-01T14:35:00.003+08:00

happy belated bday leefoong !! thot we were supposed to meet on thurs but then sum of us couldn't make it .. initially i was free but last minute had to go to the hospital to see my grandma .. she's fine now ..

on friday was my off day .. dijah too .. we had plans on wat to do the entire day ! meet each other at clementi to eat macs breakfast .. then moe .. then back at her home to relax for a while b4 going out for her to take e theory test .. but she was unfortunately late by 15mins .. then went imm .. then went to collect my passport which was super fast .. shopped at dakra at beach road .. i bought a bag ! and jah bought 2 tops .. stopped at bugis to hav a short snack .. decided tat i wanted to cut my hair as suggested by my colleagues ! so went jean yip bugis junction .. jah was sitting looking at me with shampoo in my hair, all wet hair then vavaboom to smooth short hair !!

i like my new haircut ! then went to saf yacht club for her bro's bday chalet .. only for a short while thou .. then was brought home by her sis' bf' car ! nice car man .. sleepover at her house, watched dvd until 1.15am then finally slept peacefully .. hee

my just wakeup face !
im still feeling sleepy .. *yawn

2008-10-24T22:18:00.008+08:00

my bro came back home from camp today !! He came back like around 7 plus when i was lying on my bed wif my mp3 player .. he look so diff la .. not skinnier but even bulkier cos of more muscles esp on his upper body .. and darker .. and rounder face .. haha .. was kinda not used to looking at him after not seeing him for 2 weeks liao ..

next mon will be going to my auntie house at sengkang ! tat means i can also see my cute fav cousin, aiman !! i told my bro abt it and im glad he said tat he wans to tag along as well .. the more the merrier !

okay some other updates : since im working part time now and hav been working there for more than 2 mths now, i Might be considered to work there full time .. not exactly doing the same stuffs like im doing now .. cos then i would be under a diff dept (what if only la) .. if i do get the job, i will be moving wif the rest to our new office .. i want to still work there actually .. i've made wonderful friends there and its a waste if the friendship shld just stop halfway u noe .. wish me luck guys !!

another update : a few days ago i chatted wif him .. tats cos his msn nick was stating sumthing tat made me wan to ask him .. he was sorta angry abt sumthing .. i wasn't sure so tats why i asked him if he was alright .. he said he was fine but then the 'dot dot dot' after tat .. it was obvious tat he wasn't fine ! then he told me wat's bothering him .. its a sad thing tat his trip to vietnam for a course tat he's taking has been extended from 2 weeks to a month or even more .. and he's gonna be there alone .. i wish there was sumthing tat i cld do or say to make him feel less worse .. and he's taking off nov 10 .. he wont be online for a mth ! but was the diff anyway .. we nvr really chat everyday anymore .. oh well ..

2008-10-15T22:05:00.003+08:00

hi all !!
haha .. everytime after i come back from work, im straightaway on my com .. im watching lesser and lesser tv nowadays .. its funny how last time im totally the opposite of tat .. would always stick in front of the tv, channel surfing ..

like there's more interesting thing to do on the net than watching tv .. and there is actually ! haha .. at first i was hooked into this korean girlband, 'Wonder Girls' .. so i watched their music videos and anywhere else, like shows tat they appeared in .. coincidentally, there's another korean boyband called, 'Super Junior' .. a few of the members (out of 13!) appeared in the same show as well .. they are funny and now im hooked on them instead ! have most of their songs .. but most importantly was watching them in many shows .. they like to do a lot of entertainment shows .. and they are all hilarious ! so now my friend is hooked too cos we watched an episode together and the rest is history ..

tat's it ! Basically what i would do when im at home ..

2008-10-09T21:31:00.002+08:00

today was my bro's first day enlisted to camp .. couldn't follow him so my elder bro send him using his bike.. wont be seeing him until 2 weeks later i tink .. one time at work, i receive an sms from my elder bro .. he actually took a pic from far of my bro standing in line with the rest of the ppl .. and he also stated, 'the last pic of him wif hair' ..

it sounded funny but i immediately felt like crying .. didn't cry tat much la .. cos im at work place sia .. later they thot y im crying .. even b4 tat, when i was chatting online and was toking abt my bro's 1st day in camp, my eyes were a bit teary .. i didn't noe i wld feel tis way .. like so sad tat he's away .. but of course he'll be back, no worries ..

tml will be celebrating my colleague's bday .. its the one tat has the same name as me .. haa .. finally someone's bday tat i can celebrate together wif .. cos theres been a lot of celebrations of my colleagues' bdays tis last few months .. but i wasn't close to some of them .. so i felt like i was left out actually .. haa ya .. so im gonna wear a bit nicer tml .. cos im sure there's some photos being taken on tat day .. hee

tats it ! hav to cook maggi today :(

2008-10-07T23:20:00.002+08:00

its easier when i hav tat mindset now .. not tat im completely ignoring him (cant make myself do tat ) .. its just tat now i noe wat to and not to expect .. u noe .. so tat i wont be disappointed all the time ..

and recently, i start to add guys in my msn .. just guys tat i noe thru tagged.com .. when i hav friend requests, i still pick and choose which ones i wanna accept and reject .. but i nvr really view their profile .. then i wld gladly entertain them if they ever leave messages on the site .. if they do, i wld reply them and stuffs .. if i feel interested to noe them better and they wanna add me in msn, then i allowed them to hav my email add .. so far only 4 guys la ..

please dun make me sound like im desperate .. i really just wanna make more online friends ! if im bored, i actually hav ppl to chat wif online sia .. esp at home .. out of tis 4, one of them nvr starts any conversatn wif me yet (dunno if he noes tat ive added him ) and another only makes short conversatn sey .. so boring .. another always asks the same things .. but tis latest one tat i just added today was fine! suprised tat we chatted so easily .. he sounded friendly but not cheeky kind .. almost sounded cheeky when he asked for my contact no at the end .. but i didn't give duh .. definitely will chat more wif him ..

and suprisingly today, he (the original one .. haa) chatted wif me online just now, after i reached home .. he wasn't online at all when i was at work .. even if he's gonna be online at nite, i nvr thot he wld still chat wif me .. but he did which is gud !
got to clarify sumthing wif him .. and tat is, am i considered disturbin him if i chatted wif him even when his current status is 'busy' ? he said no .. fuh .. thank goodness ..
cos he was 'busy' when he started the conversatn .. then i thot if he was busy but he wasn't .. he told me tat he just dun wan 'other' ppl to disturb him .. tats y i pop the qn to him ..
and obviously if he still wan to chat wif me even thou he's 'busy', tat means he's not .. cos he noes tat i wont disturb him if he's really busy ..

well tats it ! sori if im being long-winded today .. i wonder y .. haa

2008-10-03T19:20:00.002+08:00

today i've been doing a lot of thinking ..
cos during lunch, it was just us girls .. somehow they were toking abt r/s stuffs ..
one of my colleagues asked me if im attached .. dunno how to answer her ..
but i told them bits of it .. like how he's not ready for a r/s ..
immediately they told me to forget abt him ..
everyone's been saying tat !!
and at the same time, they were toking abt woman's gut instinct ..
then i was thinkin .. im not sure how a gut feeling in a woman shld feel like .. cos rite now, im doing the exact opposite of wat ppl are telling me to do .. that is to forget abt him who's not into a r/s yet .. the more i wan to NOT forget abt him .. u noe .. so now im thinkin whther wat im doing is gut instinct or just plain stubborness/not facing reality ..

so i've come to a conclusion .. i shld actually follow wat ppl are saying cos they are more experienced than me .. so rite now, me and him .. we're just friends. Im not gonna sms him all the time anymore .. so i need ur guys' support now .. remind me tat .. hee

2008-10-01T22:16:00.005+08:00

Selamat hari raya to all my muslim friends !!
i thot i hav nothing to look forward too tis yr but it was still great !
1st day of raya .. at home .. we waited for our half-bro to come b4 we can start the forgiveness session .. haa .. we waited for quite some time and my bro was getting impatient of waiting ..
all he wanted to do was just get to our grandma's house as early as possible ..
we took some pics which i hav posted on friendster AND facebook .. haa .. im happy just us 5 u noe .. althou it wld be great if it could be a complete family .. wif my dad & my elder bro ..
tis yr .. i didn't care abt colour coordination .. sis wearing cream+green, bro wearing blue, and i was wearing black .. when we came to our grandma's house, most were in blue, green and purple .. i wasn't the only one in black thou .. somehow my elder bro was in black as well ! toking abt affinity ..

sigh .. tell me how im suppose to feel if he's always being matchmade (twice now !) each time he and his family visits his relatives' house ...?
i dunno whether to laugh or get jealous or even worst, worry to e extent tat he might just get stolen from me (thou he's not mine la) .. u noe .. from being single to suddenly being taken .. just mixed feelings rite now ..

oh well .. our extended family will be roaming the whole of singapore on a bus this sunday! meeting at my grandma's house 10am sharp ! althou some will come later as usual .. haha .. im gonna wear pink ! cant wait !

ps: was happy when one of my aunts commented tat i looked chubbier ! hee .. unlike the usual comments each yr (so skinny la .. so tall la .. )

pps: weigh myself at grandma's house .. and im still at 45kg .. sigh .. can i ever gain anymore ..

2008-09-27T00:57:00.007+08:00

i haven't blog for quite some time le .. why not ? cos there's really nothing happening tat i can blog abt ..
its funny how my previous blog entries were all almost daily .. and were all abt him ..
there's been some slow progression btw me and him .. cos he's busy (really..) dun tink of it as an excuse ..
we only sms each other only .. and are all short ones .. even replying my smses wld be a busy thing for him ..
i miss chatting wif him online .. cos its only online tat he's able to give me a 'rose' each time we ended off ..
i miss hearing his voice .. even if we talked for a few mins on the phone, i treasured every min of it .. wished tat i cld have recorded them .. then i cld just listen to his voice if i miss him ..

thurs nite .. after hanging out wif poly friends, i told myself tat i shld stop messaging him .. but earlier on tat nite i smsed him .. we smsed for a short while .. on the way home in the bus, i did a lot of thinking .. i let fate decide for me .. i didn't reply anymore to his last sms .. then i told myself : if he still sms me by tonite or at least by early morning, then i wld tink tat we still hav a chance ..

i was suprised tat he did message me at 4 plus in the morning .. he told me tat he's sorry tat he's been busy .. like wat i told bff, i was happy enuf tat he made the effort to 'tell' me tat .. at least i felt tat he was still interested in tis r/s .. so yah .. gotta hav some patience and faith and hope !

hopefully when the weekends over, he wouldn't be as busy as he is still ! i wan the normal him again !

2008-09-19T20:22:00.003+08:00

its friday ..
i feel really fine today ! was not suppose to actually .. since i was pretty emo tis morning .. reach workplace, took the lift wif my other colleagues and i happened to b listening to a loud rock song (linkin park btw..) .. was not suprised tat my colleagues were nudging me since everyone inside the lift cld hear how loud i was listening to the song .. haha .. but i couldn't care less ..

today in the office, most of them was out of the office by 3pm .. left me and the ceo .. i was the last person and was responsible to lock up the door .. happy cos i get to leave earlier than norm .. around 5.45pm ..

today also my stomach wasn't giving me any probs .. very unusual of my stomach today .. very obedient .. usually it will give me so much pain, wif lots of air in my stomach .. the awful feeling of hunger side effects .. but none of tat at all !

so tat concludes why i was feeling fine today ! and it has nothing to do wif him for the 1st time .. haha .. tats gud for once ..

tats it ! have a great weekend everybody !

you give me something

tat makes me scared alright

this could be nothing

but im willing to give it a try

...

please give me something

cos someday i might know my heart

2008-09-16T21:20:00.003+08:00

tis morning, just as i woke up to eat .. he messaged me ! his turn now.. haha .. i wonder, if i had not smsed him yesterday morning .. would he still sms me anyways ? well i dunno either .. tats why its a wonder .. u dun necessarily need to noe the answer ..

anyway, when he smsed me, i didn't hear it cos my phone's speaker would start acting up once in a while .. it vibrated on my bed .. so it was only after i ate then i checked my phone .. he told me once tat he doesn't sleep at nite .. its only after he ate in the early morning around 5.30am then he would go to sleep .. so tat means we couldn't sms tat long as both of us would wan to sleep .. wished tat i had checked my phone sooner or tat my phone shld stop acting up again at a crucial time !

but its okay .. there's always other days rite .. speaking of days, tml is already gonna be the next half of the week ! time flies .. not sure wat to look forward to actually ..

2008-09-15T23:49:00.003+08:00

last nite i was online most of the time .. he only started to appear online very late at nite .. i wasn't sure wat to do .. whether to start a conversatn or not .. cos im sure he has a lot of ppl to entertain online .. its not just me u noe ..
maybe i was waiting for him to be free enuf to 'layan' me instead .. but i was already sleepy .. it was 2 am by then ! My tired mind eventually beat my heart's desire and so i logged off .. its a waste to log off knowing tat he's online .. he's so near yet so far ..
woke up early in the morning for my early breakfast (since im fasting). he's always on my mind the very first thing when i woke up .. so when i finished eating and was settling down to sleep (or not, since 2hrs later i hav to wake up again) .. my heart wanted so much to let him noe tat i existed, tat i hope im not being forgotten by him but my mind was telling me tat he might not wan to 'layan' anyone esp me since maybe he might still be in his emo mood .. THIS time however, the heart overcame the mind .. and so i smsed him ! And he's okay i tink .. like i said previously, he's back to normal entertaining me like he always do .. wish tat we could tok on the phone soon .. miss his voice ..

2008-09-14T00:51:00.002+08:00

meet up wif bff which was fun ..
i get to tok to her abt him and she get to tok abt tis new guy tat she noe to me !
i managed to get my mp3 player ! got the Zen Mosaic Pink .. so excited abt it .. dijah was almost tempted to get one .. haha ..
i like tat i get to put photos in it and using them as wallpaper .. so i noe exactly wat to place as my wallpaper .. luved it ! ^^
yay .. i get to sleep as long as i wan on sun !

one more thing ..
he's emoing now (abt sumthing serious) and i told him tat if he needs to tok or anything, tat im there for him .. but i also told him tat he might just wan to b alone wif no disturbance .. but its hard not being able to sms him and stuff .. but dijah encouraged me and i tried my luck .. i smsed him and thot tat he might not reply me at all .. but he did ! and he didn't 'sound' sad or emo and im glad tat he was being his normal self, 'laughing' when he replies my messages ^^

i hope ur fine now ..

2008-09-12T23:14:00.002+08:00

yay its friday .. thot i had nothing much to do at work .. one of the colleague caught me browsing a magz when i only started reading it a few mins .. she was lecturing me in a friendly way .. all i cld do was just agree wif her .. " ya .. i noe .. cannot read when the big bosses are around .. " then she was suggesting some work tat i cld help do for their a/cs dept .. im admin asst not admin cum accounts .. gud thing i did not hav to do wat she suggested me to do .. ended up doing sumthing tat i was supposed to start yesterday when i was told not to do it by person A .. then still had to do it anyways by person B .. they shld hav a system around there u noe .. cant stand diff ppl telling me diff things .. was doing the task the whole day without a break .. yup not even my lunch break when i cld hav used it to try to get sum sleep .. i was told to finish it up by the end of the day so tats why i was rushing it .. but it was then 6 .. time for me to end work .. the rest were telling me to stop and go home and continue it on mon .. found out tat i still can finish it up by mon .. if i knew, i wouldn't hav rush it .. but the gud thing is tat i wont hav too much left to finish on mon !

oh well .. cant wait to meet up wif bff tis sat .. gonna do sum shopping !!

2008-09-11T01:09:00.002+08:00

somehow i feel like i shld update .. haha .. so here goes !

tuesday nite met up wif the gang to celebrate Joc's 21st bday !!
too bad i dun hav any of the pics yet ..
i got to tell them abt the juicy stuffs from my date .. heee
of course LF knew more abt it in adv than the rest .. was actually excited to tell them !
But now, i feel like i shld stop .. haahhaa .. i scared i wld eventually be the one tat's tired abt toking abt him ..
i asked my BFF if she's bored of me toking abt him ALL the time ! but she was all the more happy to noe tat im happy so she dun mind .. thanks babe 4 being SOo understanding .. muacks !

honestly .. since the date (which was on sun), i couldn't stop thinkin abt it for 3 days in a row now .. esp when i hav nothing else to do when i am at work .. so yah ..

our r/s is not as simple as everyone thinks or wat i made it seemed like to them ..
he's still tryin to get over losing his ex of 4 yrs and losing his best friend (since both betrayed him).
tis mth happens to b a yr after the incident .. but like wat i told LF, i hav faith in our r/s ..
always hav faith .. :)

2008-09-08T20:32:00.003+08:00

okay .. tis time our date happened ! finally .. i was being superstitious abt it .. got excited and told everyone tat i hav a date and turns out tat it was cancelled .. really didn't wan tat to happen again so i kept quiet abt it ..

we were supposed to meet at vivo .. i didn't noe tat he was gonna be late .. so once i reach harbourfront, i kept looking at random guys and was scared to accidentally bumped into him .. was pretty nervous to c him unprepared u noe ..

i couldn't just stand and wait so i walked around vivo .. wanted to buy something .. and just so happen the shop was just outside GV .. so it was convenient for me .. he called saying tat he will be late a bit and so i bought the tickets first .. we watched, 'My Sassy Girl' .. love tat movie .. i was laughing when no one was .. haha ..

after tat, we went to find somewhere to eat ! i was quiet at the start .. it was definitely awkward .. sori .. i had to lie to u when i say i wasn't but i was ! saying tat its awkward will only make things worst .. so y bother saying .. anyway, from the start he told me tat he's having his flu again .. so when we were eating, he had no appetite but still managed to finish up his food ..

i was a bit more relaxed after tat .. then we were figuring out on wat to do after dinner .. and wat else but just talking .. we sat outside at the top floor of vivo .. its expected tat i wld see so many other couples there .. so it was really weird to b there .. but we settled down somewhere .. i was quiet cos i dunno wat else to ask since i've asked him a lot for the past 3 mths ! haha..

it was easier when he decides to ask or he tells the story himself .. since he's the talker and im the listener ! i was being totally honest wif him .. like how tis is the first date for me .. and he already noe b4 tis tat i dun hav a bf b4 .. so u can imagine how he was wif me .. was disturbing me all the way .. like im such a greenhorn as they say .. and im not gonna blog abt the rest of it .. TMI .. but b4 we went off, he gave me a kiss on the cheek ^^ miss him already ..

2008-09-06T00:07:00.002+08:00

i feel like getting a mp3 player .. i noe im a bit slow but i can get them cheap now as compared to when they were just released .. watever the brand i dun mind as long as got a wide screen, light-weight, lotsa memory and at reasonable price .. i hav a budget of less than $100 ..

im just sick of using my hp as my music player .. need more space for my phone .. if i wanna get a mp3 player, i hav to forgo buying a new hp or 2nd-hand ones .. tat can wait, until my phone contract ends ..

im excited abt shopping for one rite now !! but i dun hav anyone to accompany me .. if can, i wanna do it tis weekend .. anyone free to do some surveying wif me ?

2008-09-05T00:30:00.002+08:00

i almost thot i couldn't blog !
so weird .. couldn't access my dashboard .. then my bro just came back home and helped to press the refresh button many many times and it worked ! haha

wed late nite he was online but i was abt to log off .. waited for him to start the conversation but he didn't .. so ignored and shut down the com .. sad rite ..

so today at around 8pm, i was comtemplating whether to be online or not .. i assumed he wont be online so early .. but he was ! Just as soon as i was online, he chatted wif me ! We talked crap .. haha .. haven tok abt our date yet .. u noe wat, im NOT gonna say anything abt the date until it has happened .. who noes if it will just be another failed one .. sigh ..

ok la .. very sleepy .. gud nite !

2008-09-01T23:25:00.002+08:00

monday was fun at work .. most of the colleagues were done clearing their annual leave so i could c almost all of them for the 1st time !
had to give out SPH newsletters to almost everyone ! like im a newspaper girl carrying tat whole stack .. even one of them dunno me at all cos he was away when i started and only came back today .. so paiseh lor ..

haha .. one of my colleagues looked so tired and fatigue while i was so hyper-actived and both of us are fasting as well ! i wasn't sleepy in the morning i guess .. and i was happy cos i got a new haircut wahaha..

during lunch break, me and aliah just hanged out at the purple area (lounge) and read some mags. its a gud thing to b workin at a publication co. cos got free mags to read!

i got used to wat im supposed to do .. like when 2 of my colleagues r going to b interviewing a candidate, i took the initiative to book a meeting room..^^
and i also wanted to help do some of the stuffs once i knew how to do it .. just wanna b busy2 !
but not so busy tat i wld stress la..

they had a HR meeting and we ordered 100 ice cream cones for everyone ! all was suppose to go for tis meeting except me cos im just a temp .. but the best part was at the end of the meeting when all were eating ice creams ! i noe i cannot eat but we were able to bring home one!
i accidentally touch the dry ice .. cos the remaining ice creams were below it !
its weird .. the dry ice being so cold yet the hot painful feeling when it comes in contact wif ur skin .. but the pain was still bearable.. happy mood all around .. the big bosses wld go, ''..come take2 ice cream.." haha
but after tat, around 4 or so .. everyone's quiet cos everyone's sleepy .. haha

speaking of which .. im kinda sleepy now .. the heavy eyelids r killing me !

ok nite nite ..

ps: get well soon !

2008-08-31T15:43:00.002+08:00

im sad .. last nite he told me tat we shld postpone our date .. he's feeling sick now .. i dun tink he's making an excuse .. im not suprised tat he's sick as he's always busy doing his work + reservist .. i told him tat im sad he's sick but he dun wan me to b sad .. just hope tat he gets well soon ..

2008-08-30T19:01:00.002+08:00

first of all .. sorry guys if my blog entries are always full of him .. wahaha .. cant help it !
its the only way to release my emotions out and also to update u guys on my small humble life ..

yesterday went back home from work late .. like around 7.30 than i went off .. cos got stuffs tat i needed to clear for the finance dept .. im actually helping out to do their job sia .. even today i had to go work cos really couldn't finish it yesterday .. so sad tat i couldn't sleep and wake up late on the weekends .. tml also wont be waking up late .. why u ask ?

Cos i hav a date tml !! first time saying tat i hav a date..^^ weee...he planned them out already .. we are going to be doing a movie marathon .. but i hav no idea wat movies thou and how many for tat matter .. our wallets' gonna explode i tink since movie tickets are ex on the weekends ..

hehe .. wish me luck u guys ..

2008-08-28T23:19:00.002+08:00

i just noticed tat i hav a pimple suddenly appearing on my forehead ! it wasn't there this morning ! I tink im having my period soon and i might just hav it during my first week of fasting which starts next week ! wat a bummer if tat happens .. but i can really feel like its coming anytime soon ..

abt his pics .. turns out tat there was a message failure .. so no wonder i didn't receive the pics tat i forward to my email .. but it doesn't matter now .. honestly i felt embarrassed while looking at his few pics of himself .. dunno why .. maybe its cos he might hav taken those pics for my viewing .. by the way .. its decent pics of himself .. nothing else

im pretty close wif my colleague who's new like me in the co. cos we're newbies so maybe im naturally closer to her .. like its so easy to tok and share things wif her .. even told her abt him and tat we are gonna meet up tis sun .. she was sad (for herself) but excited for me ! usually i would be in her shoes .. always envying other ppl tat are going thru the story of love etc etc. but now its nice to b in the other shoe ..

was smiling to myself on the way home .. i like just strolling home from the bus stop .. only if there's sumthing happy to b smiling abt la .. and there was .. cos we were smsing each other .. for once i wanna feel happy .. god please dun make it go away ..

2008-08-27T21:13:00.007+08:00

today went fast ! especially towards the end of the day..
so for the next 2 days, ill be super busy wif my colleague off for some ad-hoc stuffs..

just b4 i went off from work, he was online! (1st time he's online when im at work)

him: su?

me: i * * * n ! (excited me calling out his name)

He wanted to transfer some pics tat he took during his reservist work..cos last week, he said tat he had to wear formal and i did wonder to him if i ever get to c how he looks like dressed up formally..wif a tie as well..i just 'said' it for the sake of 'saying' u noe..but was pretty suprised tat he remembered tat..
i ever thot of asking him to like take some pics of himself at work, for me to see..it wld be weird if i asked him tat so i nvr asked eventually..guess i dun need to anymore since he already did it !
but the sad thing rite now is tat the photos are on the com at my workplace. I did attach the pics and send it to my own email, using work's outlook but i nvr received any yet !
so sad..guess i hav to wait until tml when i reach work.. :(

oh well..

2008-08-26T21:49:00.005+08:00

hmm..just feel like blogging abt random stuffs..
(althou im sure its just gonna be abt him ^^)
im gonna be 21 tis december..still a long way but who noes what's in store for me in the future..
i wonder if i get to spend my 21st wif a special someone for the first time..?
wonder if we ever progressed any further..?
i remembered blogging abt me getting to know him for the first time:
"..i wonder if it will just end tonite and nothing else will happen or maybe sumthing btw us to keep us chatting in the future? i'll nvr noe.."
but now i noe ! haha..we did and still in touch wif each other..
now im just wondering alot more abt us..
i really appreciate the lil things he does..like just smsing me saying tat he's eaten or he's reached home from work..tat kinda stuffs..i like hearing his voice..i always like to recall back how he sounds like..when we meet, i wanna feel like i've known him for a long time..i treat him more than just a friend..a special friend.."..he's my special friend.." tat wld be nice to say to ppl..

2008-08-25T21:50:00.003+08:00

super busy at work today !! colleague off this entire week except wednesday ?! it's like she's dumping me with her leftover work tat i hav to clear off..
scheduling interviews are not as easy as it seems..all the time u hav to make sure tat the interviewers are free to interview the candidates. Kept having to liaise wif them whether they can make time for the interview..then kept having to call back the candidates to rearrange their interview slots several times ! i just hope its settled now..no more changes man..

usually would eat wif all or most of my lunch kakis but today everyone was busy as well. i only ate wif one of them today..but its okay..got to tell her stuffs tat i wouldn't say to groups of ppl at one time..esp personal stuffs like toking abt him ! haha

while i was so busy at work, he wasn't at all ! he's doing his reservist (policeman), guarding ministers tat came to spore for some asean meeting..he had to dress more of a formal one instead of police uniforms. he must look suave in formal i guess..^^ gud tat he was not busy cos he had time to secretly sms me while he was on duty..hehe..

oh well..tat's it ! pretty hungry now..

ps: confirmed tat we wld meet tis sun ! so even if im stress like crazy at work, i hav sumthing to look forward to at the end of the week !

2008-08-24T14:35:00.002+08:00

Life is really full of ups and down guys..
so dun be suprised if my blog entries can be a sad, emo one and a happy one the next..
life is crazy and unpredictable..

okay rite now, i hate the cold rainy weather these last few days or weeks..
u noe why i hate it ? its cos love's weather is fair as they say it..so i dun like rainy weather..^^

anyway..my missing him has lessen now..tat's cos he called me late last nite !
initially i wanted to know how his work schedule like since he's on reservist now
so i sms him and stuffs..then his last sms reply was just a, " yeah ok" -_-
i wasn't sure whether to ask him anything else and so i went to bed cos i was quite sleepy..
i was really suprised and excited tat he called ! hehe
still have not got used to his voice cos this is only the 2nd time tat im hearing him..
we tok 10mins longer than the first ^^
thot tat he wld be busy wif reservist but he said tat he works on 2 shifts for 2 days then 2 days off. today he's off but he still has his own work tat he's doing still..
we might be meeting on the last day of the month but he still has to check his schedule first (he's such a busy man)

so let's just hope for the best !

ps: i tink im getting skinnier..help!

2008-08-23T13:31:00.006+08:00

nowadays i always kept sighing away..
when im suddenly tinking of him, ill sigh away cos i miss him la..
i sigh cos theres nothing tat i can do to make it go away..
he sms me 6 in the morning today. he realised how long we haven spent time chatting online anymore (im glad he realised tat cos i thot im the only one realising tat !)
anyway, he's sorry tat he cannot reply to my smses sumtimes.
the underlying thing tat he was trying to say is tat, he has been busy wif his reservist and will still be next week..which means its gonna be sum time b4 we can eventually meet..

Ps: had a dream abt him again, in the morning rite after he messaged me..Gosh im missing him a lot i guess..oh well

tis is truly a test for me and im gonna accept it !
im gonna have faith in myself and faith in him..
things will work out..
look forward to the end of the tunnel..

2008-08-20T20:45:00.002+08:00

Just came upon my friendster horoscope and was suprised to read it..it says:
"If a new relationship that has been picking up speed suddenly comes to a screeching halt, right now, don't worry! This is not a bad sign that means things are not going to work out between the two of you. It is merely a change, and you should not read anything into it. If communication doesn't pick up again in a few days, then it is perfectly reasonable for you to find out what's up. But don't freak out right away. You will send out desperate vibes, and that is not who you are."

it's kinda true thou..but at the same time, im trying my best to ''..take one step at a time''.
Jordin Sparks' latest single, 'One Step at a Time' is on my music playlist. it means a lot so im always reminded on wat im suppose to do, which is to take one step at a time !

he doesn't really believe in horoscopes but i like to read them cos sumtimes it can be so true u noe..so ya..

2008-08-18T22:09:00.002+08:00

omg !!
he's now like my guy bff..anything also wan to tell him..
to the extreme of telling him abt the dream i had abt himself !
haha..i only wanted to tell him tat he appeared in my dream..but then he kept probing me to tell more..so i told him..so embarassing till i could feel myself blushing sia..haha

thanks to him, im now thinking of a nickname for him and i hav one now..i hope no one calls him tat yet so tat its just btw me and him..^^ and he wans to call me susu also cos he likes milk !
sigh..my name is so common..wat other nicknames can he give me anyways rite ? cos its either susu or lala..

oh well..tat's it !
can't wait to meet the gang tomolo !
must dress up nice2 ah..

2008-08-17T13:15:00.002+08:00

..friday..
after lunch time, he smsed me..(i kinda knew it was him so i was pretty excited when my phone vibrated) ^^ he wanted to call me later on during the day or nite. he insisted on telling me first cos he wouldn't wan to call at an inappropriate time u noe..
but..at midnight he wondered if i was still awake..only to tell me tat he's a bit busy so we can only tok on the phone on sum other day..:(

..saturday..
went out wif bff ! we just went reki2 (which means surverying). we reki sum phones cos she wans to find a new phone. tat got me excited too ! cos now i wan to change my phone as well..im waiting for my next pay b4 i can buy..looking forward to tat day !!
we didn't do anything much but tat's not the impt part. the impt part was being able to hang out wif ur best friend and just tok. i was happy to tell her everything abt him..^^ and at the same time knowing sum of her past r/s and experiences she had.

..today..
basically nuthing now except for one thing..
i CANNOT believe i actually dreamt of him..haha..when i least expect it.
once i wondered y i nvr dreamt of him. then i thot maybe bcos i haven see him in person so tats y..but i still dream of him anyways..
it was a great dream..tats all i can say..hehe

2008-08-14T20:44:00.002+08:00

My colleague was on MC so i helped to finish up her stuffs and also do my daily stuffs..since im just a temp, i dun hav my own work space. there's one desk thou but no phone or computer, so tat sucks. so im sharing the space wif my colleague. Our desk is like a L-shaped so there's enuf space but our seats are damn big so it's pretty squeezy to move around.
Since she was on MC, i had the place to myself. I prefer myself actually..haha..cos i get to use msn instead of ebuddy when she's around. She's the perm staff so of course she gets the msn while i use the ebuddy.
Managed to watch the movie 'Eurotrip' during my lunchtime at a laptop wif our lunch kakis but not until the end thou. We only had less than 2 hrs of free time. The movie is hilarious at times. One of them laughed so hard, u cant help but laughed as well.

So last nite, i smsed him but for a short while cos i noe he had reservist on tat day and he shld be tired. I cant help but asked him on the reason y he decided to call me up..of course he said tat he wanted to ask me a question but another reason was so tat he could hear my voice, how i sound like u noe..^^
I nvr really thot abt it..abt wanting to hear how he sounds like. it was more of how nervous i would be and wat i shld say if we ever to talk on the phone..so ya
Our sms kinda ended halfway so i was expecting him to sms me the next day..
and he did! he gave me a morning message..hehe..^^

Cant wait for friday! go home at 6!

2008-08-13T20:31:00.002+08:00

Cant wait to meet up wif bff this sat.
She wants to go CWP to browse for phones.
Coincidentally, i thot of going there too. want to go singtel's outlet located there.

My work so far is fine. i really feel like im a PA to my colleague. Anything she wans me to zap, i zap. even ask me to help throw tissues at the rubbish bin..what the heck la...
anyway, its pretty slack in terms of the lunch time. Lunch time for the employees there is btw 12 to 2. so u can take ur lunch, maybe from 12 to 1, 1 to 2 etc..
but somehow, my lunch kakis and me would packet our lunch, eat at our workplace and chat all the way from 12 to 2. I kinda told my colleague abt it and she is SO aware of tat (coz she's one of the lunch kakis anyway..haha).
Anyway, even if i finish my lunch early, ill most probably be locked out of the office coz i dun hav the keys to the room. so then hav to wait for the rest to finish their lunch. so doesn't make any difference..
and we get to wear watever tat we like ! some wear shorts and slippers..and its fine by everyone.

ok, lets talk abt him..last nite, he wanted to talk to me over the phone for a short while..
at first i wasn't sure if the 'talk' means 'sms talk' or really talking over the phone..its the latter
it took me like 2 mins to say yes cos im not ready yet..
so was pretty anxious to hear how he sound like..he sounds great! haha
dunno how to react when he says, ''gud nite..take care..sweet dreams..'' ^^
anyway, after our short conversation, he smsed saying tat i have a nice cute voice..sigh..he's so cute u noe..thanks for the compliment ! hehe

cant wait to meet him in person! he asked when im free and it's a date for us! but im not sure which weekend thou but i noe it's within tis mth..

tat's it!

2008-08-12T00:55:00.002+08:00

he's not looking for luv yet..not now
he told me abt how he got his heart broken.
best friend cheats on his girlfriend of 4 years..
i told him abt how i've nvr been in a r/s before..
he told me how wonderful luv is..told me abt how wonderful his previous love was..
it breaks my heart knowing tat he's had a great long-term r/s wif someone but still ended up not being together..
which girl out there will finally be the 'one' for him?
i wanna hope it's me but it's no use just hoping cos nothing gonna come out of it..

so, I lay my head back down.

and I lift my hands and pray.

to be only yours, I pray, to be only yours

i know now you're my only hope.

2008-08-11T21:15:00.004+08:00

i dunno wat to feel rite now..
so much tat i just got to noe from him..
i feel suprised, happy, sad..feel not worthy of him..
he's going overseas for 2 weeks (not yet) and i just felt like crying..
am i crazy to feel tis way when i haven even met him yet..
found out he has an interesting background while im just a normal next-door girl..
but he said tat everyone is different..he sure IS different than any other guy i noe..
in fact i noe him more than i ever noe abt other guys all together..
i cant stop crying now..its not just abt him..
im thinking abt how i nvr get to noe my maternal grandparents since they passed away even b4 im born.
im thinking abt how lonely my mum must have been, without her parents. She doesn't have tat many relatives now. Only her one sister tat i hav seen in picture.
im thinking abt how broken my family is..i haven tok to my 2nd bro for 8 years now..(believe it!)
i hav no idea how we nvr spoke in the first place.
i tink it has sumthing to do wif my parents' divorce and how many times she remarried again.
At one time, he was still living wif us..then he couldn't stand seeing some other father figure in the house..decided to stay wif my paternal grandparents' house.
he thot why me and my siblings did not follow him but he must understand tat we were a lot younger than he was..we were too young to understand anything..
well tat's MY version of the story..i'll nvr noe why he's not toking to us..

2008-08-10T16:00:00.009+08:00

Sales went up a bit dijah ! haha..only she will noe wat im talking abt..
Suprisingly i woke up early tis morning, like around 8.30am.
I kept waking up a few times in between my sleep coz my mind was pretty alert
(from last nite ^^ )..
im glad i was being myself and honest to wat i was feeling..

"..tats nice 2 noe girl.." in exact words

gosh..it was really hard for me to log off..wanted so much to stay online..

all these feelings inside me..just wanted to burst it out !
so i kinda told my mum abt him. showed her his pic as well.
she always assumed tat any guy tat i like would be a chinese guy coz long long ago, once upon a time in sec skool, i showed her my graduation photo of me and tis other guy tat i used to hav a crush on.
tat's long ago mum..cant believe she remembered tat..
i guess i just wan to share everything wif my only mum !

2008-08-09T19:44:00.002+08:00

Happy National Day guys !!
sigh..too bad dun hav tickets to go there..
i wanna go someday..

well..since mon i start work, i had to shop for more clothes and stuffs. the good thing is that i need not wear formal clothes. so can wear like plain t-shirts and jeans. but my direct boss kinda told me to at least not wear jeans for my 1st day of work. first impression counts rite..?
i wonder if i can wear sandals but i dun tink i shld take things for granted..so i bought a pair of shoe ! haha
there's still some sales going on, so i managed to buy stuffs at a discount..yeah !

2008-08-05T19:58:00.002+08:00

i got a job as admin asst @ Buona Vista. near there actually but still hav to take bus to go there. im starting next mon ! but only temp until the end of the year.

i asked bff if i am crazy..she nvr answer my qn but nvr mind..haha

rite now, me and him..we hav moved on to sms. Kinda ask me for my no. last sat, and i was so suprised when he suddenly sms me on mon nite..coz i was expecting him to do so like maybe immediately after he got my no..haha

so i'm really happy the way things are..sounds too gud to be true for me..but we c how..

ciao!

2008-08-03T02:07:00.002+08:00

am i crazy or am i crazy ?
is it possible to love somebody when u only noe them like for 2 months ?
nvr had this feeling b4..tis is nervewrecking guys !!

please can somebody enlighten me ?

2008-08-02T22:59:00.002+08:00

i hav a job interview for admin assistant coming up this coming tuesday.
hopefully everything goes smoothly..

so planned to meet bff on sun but turns out tat she's free today so on the spot meet her after her work ended at 1..
we thot abt the same place to go to that is to go bugis!
i have some money now, so the more excited i was abt shopping !

ate at swensen then proceed to shop !
in the end, i bought 2 tops, 2 belts, and a legging.

we stopped at Starbucks coffee..(i kept saying, 'Starhub' instead of Starbucks, which was funny lor)..while chatting, then got excited when we saw helicopters, and red parachutes wif red smokes. today was also one of the days of ndp preview.

so we walked from bugis to suntec city to marina bay and caught a glimpse of fighter jets doing their thing. i was excited abt the heart shape that 2 fighter jets are going to do, and we managed to stand at the right place at the right time !!
and of course i took a photo of it..
happy tat i get to see all these up close, for the first time !

so looking forward to seeing fireworks, which is happening in 2 weeks time i tink..

2008-07-30T23:00:00.003+08:00

it's been 2 weeks not seeing him online at the same time le..but even though once he was online, i dare not start the conversation. dun wanna disturb him if he's busy wif something else rite?
(felt like i've said this b4...really?)

so..it's normal tat we gurls cry rite?
and sumtimes it's just a way to release our emotions..
i had enuf crying at one time..and he thot if there's sumthing wrong..(i'm fine, really)
i wonder if guys are sensitive to girls' crying?

finally got my pay !! hopefully can hang out wif bff soon if she's not busy either.

2008-07-28T12:37:00.003+08:00

i still haven get my freaking pay yet !! wat the heck rite? so i called the HR abt it..she said will call me back later. it feels like im begging for my own money, the money tat i worked hard for some more.
i hate feeling so poor rite now..

so last saturday, helped out at the event tat QL wanted one of us to go, which was at Punggol. went wif QL, and her friend and boyfriend.
It was a welcome party for the residents there at Edgedale. At first it was boring, time was passing by so slowly..i volunteered at the bouncing float. so basically just make sure of the kids' safety.
there's these 2 boys tat are bigger and older than the average kids.

already so big still want to go inside the float and they were playing chasing inside ?!

since they are bigger, they are also heavier..so when they leaned at one side of the float, the float almost fell to one side. dun u tink it's dangerous if there are also other kids that were smaller in there?

i couldn't just look and not say anything, so each time the 2 boys did that again, i just voiced out at them and told them not to lean against the sides.

then we were told to stop the game booth and the bouncing float for a short while coz the guest of honours were arriving soon. everything after tat went fast and we all enjoyed a lot more after tat! i helped out at QL's game booth which was fun! just asked the kids to throw balls and 3 balls have to land in the same coloured bowls. if they do, they get a prize ! was excited if the kids win ! haha..and the best part was taking some of the prizes home for ourselves ! hehe..all of them did it too..i just went along wif them.

2008-07-21T00:24:00.002+08:00

it sucks not to hav money..im feeling like crap now
cannot go out and shop at all..even going out would use some transport money..
so im always stuck at home..just waiting for my pay to come..i've been worrying SO much abt my pay..
just hope to hav some money for QL's bday celebratn tis coming wed..
my period has not come yet..it's always a relief when it comes so yah..
im sad as well..the last time we've chatted was last wed, during his worktime..is he busy? im worried he's already sick and tired of me..hope not !
im so lonely..sigh*

2008-07-17T23:29:00.003+08:00

Had a fall at home. The fall was so animated, like wat u would hav seen on tv or cartoons where the person would fall flat on the back..yup, i fell on my back..flat
here's wat happened:
i was on the com then the phone rang.
it was ringing for some time so i wouldn't wan whoever tat was calling to hang up on me..
so i rushed to the phone.
Forgot tat there's a small puddle of water near the phone stand..so i slipped.
thot tat i would land on my butt but it all happened so fast tat somehow i landed on my back. moreover, there's a small fan beside the phone stand.
it fell on my left feet when i was already flat on my back.
i thot i couldn't stand up at all but i managed to..
so basically i'm hurt on my left feet and the lower part of my back..ouch!
i'm just glad it didn't happen to any other person tat might just cause more pain, like for an elderly (not tat there was any at home).
i'm guessing there will be blueblack marks on tat 2 spots by tml..
and guess wat..the phone call ended by the time i slipped!

2008-07-17T15:35:00.002+08:00

" u wanna meet me one day ? " he asked me tat qn !!
of course it's not like he wants to meet me immediately but when we noe each other a lil more in the future, tat qn might pop again soon..
so i just said, "maybe"..haha..
he asked me whether i'm afraid or shy ? and i just answered, "both"
i tink it's more of nervous and excited than afraid..coz we've only seen each other from pics and can be diff when u see tat person in person, face to face..
nervous tat he might expect more of me..i'm skinny rite (not tat i wan to) so who noes he might get turn off by skinny girls..
excited to c how tall he is and how he sounds like and stuff..

anyway, it's not like we meeting yet ! nope, not yet..

2008-07-15T14:57:00.002+08:00

i feel better now unlike my previous blog entry.
he was online. not sure whether to start the conversation or not. (but i still did anyway).
so finally found out y he did not replied me back coz he fell asleep on his couch for a short while.
so by the time he woke up, i was already offline.
we chat abt his hamsters! (14 of them wor..althou there were a lot more b4 tat).
hope to c pics of his hamsters soon! ("very very cute" as quoted by him).

2008-07-12T23:42:00.002+08:00

i really am in a bad bad mood now..can just cry for no reason. when i'm angry abt sumthing else, i wld cry abt sumthing else instead. coz the mood to cry happens to be there..
last nite chat wif him online..just felt tat sumthing was off during tat chat..like it wasn't him typing the words. he kinda like forgot wat we had chat abt previously. (wat su..u expect him to remember everything u guys had chat abt? not..duh!)
halfway thru, he nvr replied at all. our conversation elapsed for more than an hr and i was getting sleepy..so i just say wat i needed to say and just signed off..
funnily i slept thru soundly tat nite..watever la

tml last day of work but sadly no enuf money yet to spend..sigh, have to find another job. a whole new round of complainings, and new stuffs to learn i guess (if i hav a job)

tat's it!

2008-07-09T20:24:00.002+08:00

3 more working days b4 i end my 1-mth contract!!
anyway, yesterday when i finished my dinner break, i was sitting around where the seats are. and it's rite outside the singtel shop. can't believe tat there's actually a malay guy tat just sat beside me and started toking to me like i noe him. he was like, "..dun be scared to tok to me leh..i wont eat u up.." or "i'm a friendly person, likes to tok to ppl.." more like he only wants to disturb girls tat are younger than him. he kept asking me qns tat can be too personal for others. i wasn't sure whether to answer him or not..so i would only nod or shake my head, while playing wif my phone. he claims tat he's 26..looks older lor..wat the heck! and how dare he asked for my hp no..of course didn't give and wouldn't even THINK abt giving him my no. fat hope! he's not even handsome lor..
gud tink it was near the end of my break, so i had the excuse to go back..i felt the shiver sia..burrr..so cold just thinking abt it..

tat's it! so hungry now

2008-07-06T21:10:00.002+08:00

yesterday, dijah came to causeway point and we get to eat for lunch around 430pm. because of her, i was late when i punched in. first time late but only for like 10 mins or so.
its ok la as long as i dun get scolded or anything. instead of going home at 6.30 coz tat's my shift for tat day, i had to do overtime until 9.30 coz 2 ppl from level 2 MC sia. i had to relief for a girl at the bazaar althou she was not hungry coz theres a lot of stalls selling food at the bazaar and u get tempted i guess. at least i get to chat wif her for tat 1 hr before i went back to level 1.
today off day. planned tat we sec skoolmates wld go out for a get together. but both me and dijah busy and we didn't plan properly. only last minute tat we made confirmation. so i was not suprised tat all didn't come. even dijah had last-minute thing. (relatives of her passed away)
so just me and james. i kinda told andy not to come meet us coz just found out tat both james and andy dun get along. dun u tink it wld be weird if both of them met?
so me and james just went to watch Hancock at vivo. Nice movie. not like wat i expected. so tat's why its fun to watch. thot tat i wld go home early but he wanted to walk2 around, so we did tat. it's still okay hanging out wif him. at least we get to chat after so long. the best part was bumping into old friends. first was parames, our sec skool classmate. i almost thot i got the wrong guy but i was certain tat it was him. then, a few mins later, saw Harry, my colleague during my attachment. he thot tat i was going on a date -_-. then saw someone i see b4 in sec skool tat james know. then..saw Kenneth which i only remembered his name after im at home. i didn't noe or forgot tat he's the guy tat had a knock/clash wif james a few years ago at school, tat caused james' 2 front teeth to break. james dun even wan to see his face until now..so sorry i forgot james..

anyway, hopefully can still make a real planned gathering wif my sec skool classmates. today was definitely unsuccessful..tat's it!
sigh..hav to work tml but 6 more days to end of work!

2008-07-04T23:30:00.005+08:00

last nite didnt go online at all..was figuring tat he wont be online anyway, so wat's the use anyway rite?
was chatting wif bro before going to sleep..he was singing M2M's song, "Everything You Do". it's an old song and then i suddenly remembered the other great songs like "Pretty Boy", "Mirror Mirror" etc..the song "pretty boy" just reminded me of him so yah..
so the funny thing was, after i had my lunch break, sat down where there are seats outside shops in the mall and heard the song at Hang Ten (so does tat mean anything?)
anyway, didn't eat a full meal at all during my lunch and early dinner break..so i basically felt like passing out at one point..no wonder at times i thot the place looks dim and the next, too bright..(tat's the sign tat u r going to pass out gurl). Kept yawning the whole time some more. so finally linda helped cashiering while i go and rest for a while..
Lesson of the day: to eat at least a full meal each day when im working..it's pretty serious if i dun eat properly coz i'm standing all the time during work..but it's only today tat i didn't eat properly..so no worries k?
now chatting wif him..so happy me!

an apple a day..

2008-06-30T23:48:00.002+08:00

sunday
when i work, it was the last day for the 20% storewide sale. so u can imagine how freaking crowded the place was. when i came, Linda was having her break so she didn't allow me to open the cashier yet. she wants me to help the fitting room instead. i felt helpless when i see the very long queue at the other cashier counter at another end. customers started complaining why our cashier counter wasn't open. but i couldn't do anything abt it until linda finished her lunch break.
well, in the end it was fine. got another manpower help from maslina from 2nd level to help our counter. so i was basically standing in between them, helping to pack for both counters. i had to be fast sia..so challenging..
so that's for sunday..
monday
since its monday and the sale was over, there weren't so many ppl. so linda could trust me to handle the cashier by myself. but there was also cindy around just in case i needed help. and i always asked for her help if customers wan to refund or return stuffs tat they bought earlier on.
anyway, just now mum came to my workplace around 9pm or so..so we went home together!
me and my secondary schoolmates are planning to meet after so long for a lunch and maybe a movie..hopefully as many of us can make it !
tat's it!

miss not chatting wif him online

2008-06-26T23:34:00.001+08:00

Part of me laughs...
Part of me cries...
Part of me wants to question why...
Why is there joy?
Why is there pain?
Why is there sunshine and the rain?
One day you're here..
Next you are gone..
No matter what we must go on
Just keep the faith and Let love lead the way

tis part of the lyric meant a lot to me i guess...
btw its a song from spice girls. been trying to get the song

2008-06-25T23:19:00.002+08:00

i finally did some cashering today !! Linda was there to help and guide me along..then she decided to let me do it wif her watchful eyes..of course lotsa mistakes. sumtimes forgot to key in members' card..or forgot to open another set of coins..or anyhow just press the cashier machine.
Mum tinks it's just as simple as she thot it was..but there's also vouchers if customers decide to use them (all kinds of vouchers some more) or if customers decide to return back their purchased goods..etc etc
Tml not sure if linda's off or not but there's also cindy tml to help me if anything happens..too bad most of the permanent staffs doing cashier are stationed at Expo so left us temp staffs..i just hope i dun screw myself up..wish me luck!

2008-06-24T00:32:00.002+08:00

yay! finally can get longer hours of sleep since im not working today (tuesday). im quite sleepy now..but i dunno why i still wan to be online. maybe im hoping tat i could chat wif tat someone but im still waiting..i guess tat someone is busy. its not like tat someone has the obligation to chat wif me every single day..tat someone might get bored of me too soon..

oh well..not enuf money..not enuf time..not enuf energy..

forget abt it..come lets go to sleep peoples!!

2008-06-21T23:48:00.003+08:00

each time i start work, i always dunno wat i hav to do next. I always hav to ask the manager or supervisor wat i can do or help wif..
so for the last 7 days tat i've worked..i've done redemption counter, relief for manual cashiering at the atrium, folding of clothes, packing (at the cashier), helped out at the fitting room..
i enjoyed a lot more during work today coz i hav the malay colleagues at the cashier and fitting room to tok to..they quite funny when they start gossiping abt another colleague of ours.
i just hope time wld pass by quick!
coz rite now, saturday doesn't feel like saturday. Felt more like a weekday. What to do when my workdays are not the normal 5-day work week. (more like 3 days work then 1 off day).

oh well..tat's it!

wish he could be online every nite b4 i go to sleep..

2008-06-19T21:09:00.003+08:00

when writing my previous blog entry, i guess at the time i felt like giving up. But in the end i never told my mum abt wat i felt. i was glad i had tat someone to chat wif online last nite. he wasn't online the last few days and happened to be online last nite, when last nite i nearly thot abt not going online.
so, i chat wif him abt wat's troubling me..im a positive person but i guess sumtimes i need the assurance tat, "..everything's going to be fine.." so now i've decided to continue on wif my part-time job! (thanks!)
And indeed it was fine working today. Made more friends, talked a lot more wif my colleagues etc.
and tml is my off day! dunno wat to do..maybe finally shop for wat i needed.

just remember tat its Nothing..

2008-06-18T23:12:00.004+08:00

i really dun tink i'm cut out to do sales or retail job..helping customers and making them happy is still sumthing i like to do but NOT all the standing..i'm not saying tat i'm lazy, but some ppl that noes me know tat my legs get tired easily. (which means i'm not the typical girl tat likes to shop the whole day too). 8 to 9 hours of standing hurts a lot! it's painful when i bend my knees. if i rest my legs by sitting down for even 5 mins, when i start walking, i can feel my muscles behind my thighs starts stretching! (my hamstring's being pulled?..not sure)
so wat do i do? I wanna ask my mum to go along wif my decision to stop the temp job tat i'm doing currently..i really can't take it anymore..:(

2008-06-09T22:43:00.004+08:00

i just met someone online a few days ago..haha
and it's from facebook.
so, i browse thru some ppl and found this malay guy cute! so i said to him, "how you doing?" just for the fun of it. then, he replied back to me and we ended up 'chatting' and getting to noe each other a lil bit more..
i wonder if it will just end tonite and nothing else will happen or maybe sumthing btw us to keep us chatting in the future?
i'll nvr noe..

2008-06-01T16:32:00.002+08:00

so excited blogging abt our graduation tat i forgot to blog abt wat i did yesterday.
Decided a few days ago tat dijah & me wld go Escape Theme Park coz she got free tickets from her sis!
Met her at Red Hill mrt station when it started raining..= (
We were worried whether we could go for most of the rides but not too worry!
Had to wait for at least 20 mins b4 the technicians have tested some of the rides..
so excited to go on the rides coz i haven been there for years i'm sure.

The most exhirilating (did i spell it rite?) ride was the Vikins, the one with the big ship tat sways up and down like a swing and it gets higher and higher. when it plunges down, our stomachs felt the gravity and we were scared tat we wld just fall out anytime soon!
so then the Rainbow sunshine ride wasn't the most scary one as compared to the Vikins.
The rainbow sunshine ride is the one where it will go one full circle. When it's at the top and quickly plunges down, both of us were swaying from left to right since they were so many space between us. becoz we were swaying tat made it fun!

it's so funny when u see boys going on these rides and not knowing how it wld be like and thot tat it wld not be scary for them. then realised it's damn scary and they wld be screaming away like girls..haha (not tat i saw any).

at the end of the day, my jaws were in pain! i tink too much screaming and how big my mouth was when i screamed..haha..and woke up on a sunday morning with a sore throat and still sore now..i hate sore throat..i just hope i won't be sick..

tat's it!

2008-05-31T21:12:00.010+08:00

yes, update on the graduation!!
firstly, was waiting for the rest at dover.

Then shuting saw me and decided to take a picture wif me! QL helped to take the pic btw..took the pic from st's friendster.

then realised tat Joc had already arrived and was waiting outside convention centre. so me and QL went over.
was worried tat my mum wld be late but she arrived faster than i thot..funny thing was, my mum called me and asked me where i was and i realised tat she was just right in front of me wif joc, QL in between..haha
wif my mum here already, i was even pumped up and excited!
the whole 2 speeches were pretty fast, wasn't feeling sleepy yet..then the time comes to get up on stage. so nervous and i kept fidgetting wif my hair, making sure tat it wasn't messy..neat freak i guess..

FYI: u guys can actually check urself on video at sp gradution website. It's pretty slow but it was embarrassing looking at myself. i get to c my bro's too which was funny!

He's friend was pretty funny! As told from my bro, he purposely wore an old fashion spectacle. he is quite famous wif lots of supporter. the way he acts and when he bowed to the audience, which wasn't necessary. and he's quite smart.

Lastly, at the end of the ceremony, my mum got to eat some of the food and she liked the fried wan ton (i tink). too bad she couldn't get another one coz it's sold out!

My fav photo of them all! Hopefully i get other photos from the rest..felt like a celebrity for once in my life! haha
tat's it! looking forward to any class gathering b4 the guys go for their ns.