Sunday 31 August 2008

bogo-ship-poyo 3:43 pm

Saturday 30 August 2008

first of all .. sorry guys if my blog entries are always full of him .. wahaha .. cant help it !
its the only way to release my emotions out and also to update u guys on my small humble life ..

yesterday went back home from work late .. like around 7.30 than i went off .. cos got stuffs tat i needed to clear for the finance dept .. im actually helping out to do their job sia .. even today i had to go work cos really couldn't finish it yesterday .. so sad tat i couldn't sleep and wake up late on the weekends .. tml also wont be waking up late .. why u ask ?

Cos i hav a date tml !! first time saying tat i hav a date..^^ weee...he planned them out already .. we are going to be doing a movie marathon .. but i hav no idea wat movies thou and how many for tat matter .. our wallets' gonna explode i tink since movie tickets are ex on the weekends ..

hehe .. wish me luck u guys ..

bogo-ship-poyo 7:01 pm

Thursday 28 August 2008

i just noticed tat i hav a pimple suddenly appearing on my forehead ! it wasn't there this morning ! I tink im having my period soon and i might just hav it during my first week of fasting which starts next week ! wat a bummer if tat happens .. but i can really feel like its coming anytime soon ..

abt his pics .. turns out tat there was a message failure .. so no wonder i didn't receive the pics tat i forward to my email .. but it doesn't matter now .. honestly i felt embarrassed while looking at his few pics of himself .. dunno why .. maybe its cos he might hav taken those pics for my viewing .. by the way .. its decent pics of himself .. nothing else

im pretty close wif my colleague who's new like me in the co. cos we're newbies so maybe im naturally closer to her .. like its so easy to tok and share things wif her .. even told her abt him and tat we are gonna meet up tis sun .. she was sad (for herself) but excited for me ! usually i would be in her shoes .. always envying other ppl tat are going thru the story of love etc etc. but now its nice to b in the other shoe ..

was smiling to myself on the way home .. i like just strolling home from the bus stop .. only if there's sumthing happy to b smiling abt la .. and there was .. cos we were smsing each other .. for once i wanna feel happy .. god please dun make it go away ..

bogo-ship-poyo 11:19 pm

Wednesday 27 August 2008

today went fast ! especially towards the end of the day..
so for the next 2 days, ill be super busy wif my colleague off for some ad-hoc stuffs..

just b4 i went off from work, he was online! (1st time he's online when im at work)

him: su?

me: i * * * n ! (excited me calling out his name)

He wanted to transfer some pics tat he took during his reservist work..cos last week, he said tat he had to wear formal and i did wonder to him if i ever get to c how he looks like dressed up formally..wif a tie as well..i just 'said' it for the sake of 'saying' u noe..but was pretty suprised tat he remembered tat..
i ever thot of asking him to like take some pics of himself at work, for me to see..it wld be weird if i asked him tat so i nvr asked eventually..guess i dun need to anymore since he already did it !
but the sad thing rite now is tat the photos are on the com at my workplace. I did attach the pics and send it to my own email, using work's outlook but i nvr received any yet !
so sad..guess i hav to wait until tml when i reach work.. :(

oh well..

bogo-ship-poyo 9:13 pm

Tuesday 26 August 2008

hmm..just feel like blogging abt random stuffs..
(althou im sure its just gonna be abt him ^^)
im gonna be 21 tis december..still a long way but who noes what's in store for me in the future..
i wonder if i get to spend my 21st wif a special someone for the first time..?
wonder if we ever progressed any further..?
i remembered blogging abt me getting to know him for the first time:
"..i wonder if it will just end tonite and nothing else will happen or maybe sumthing btw us to keep us chatting in the future? i'll nvr noe.."
but now i noe ! haha..we did and still in touch wif each other..
now im just wondering alot more abt us..
i really appreciate the lil things he does..like just smsing me saying tat he's eaten or he's reached home from work..tat kinda stuffs..i like hearing his voice..i always like to recall back how he sounds like..when we meet, i wanna feel like i've known him for a long time..i treat him more than just a friend..a special friend.."..he's my special friend.." tat wld be nice to say to ppl..

bogo-ship-poyo 9:49 pm

Monday 25 August 2008

super busy at work today !! colleague off this entire week except wednesday ?! it's like she's dumping me with her leftover work tat i hav to clear off..
scheduling interviews are not as easy as it seems..all the time u hav to make sure tat the interviewers are free to interview the candidates. Kept having to liaise wif them whether they can make time for the interview..then kept having to call back the candidates to rearrange their interview slots several times ! i just hope its settled now..no more changes man..

usually would eat wif all or most of my lunch kakis but today everyone was busy as well. i only ate wif one of them today..but its okay..got to tell her stuffs tat i wouldn't say to groups of ppl at one time..esp personal stuffs like toking abt him ! haha

while i was so busy at work, he wasn't at all ! he's doing his reservist (policeman), guarding ministers tat came to spore for some asean meeting..he had to dress more of a formal one instead of police uniforms. he must look suave in formal i guess..^^ gud tat he was not busy cos he had time to secretly sms me while he was on duty..hehe..

oh well..tat's it ! pretty hungry now..

ps: confirmed tat we wld meet tis sun ! so even if im stress like crazy at work, i hav sumthing to look forward to at the end of the week !

bogo-ship-poyo 9:50 pm

Sunday 24 August 2008

Life is really full of ups and down guys..
so dun be suprised if my blog entries can be a sad, emo one and a happy one the next..
life is crazy and unpredictable..

okay rite now, i hate the cold rainy weather these last few days or weeks..
u noe why i hate it ? its cos love's weather is fair as they say it..so i dun like rainy weather..^^

anyway..my missing him has lessen now..tat's cos he called me late last nite !
initially i wanted to know how his work schedule like since he's on reservist now
so i sms him and stuffs..then his last sms reply was just a, " yeah ok" -_-
i wasn't sure whether to ask him anything else and so i went to bed cos i was quite sleepy..
i was really suprised and excited tat he called ! hehe
still have not got used to his voice cos this is only the 2nd time tat im hearing him..
we tok 10mins longer than the first ^^
thot tat he wld be busy wif reservist but he said tat he works on 2 shifts for 2 days then 2 days off. today he's off but he still has his own work tat he's doing still..
we might be meeting on the last day of the month but he still has to check his schedule first (he's such a busy man)

so let's just hope for the best !

ps: i tink im getting skinnier..help!

bogo-ship-poyo 2:35 pm

Saturday 23 August 2008

nowadays i always kept sighing away..
when im suddenly tinking of him, ill sigh away cos i miss him la..
i sigh cos theres nothing tat i can do to make it go away..
he sms me 6 in the morning today. he realised how long we haven spent time chatting online anymore (im glad he realised tat cos i thot im the only one realising tat !)
anyway, he's sorry tat he cannot reply to my smses sumtimes.
the underlying thing tat he was trying to say is tat, he has been busy wif his reservist and will still be next week..which means its gonna be sum time b4 we can eventually meet..

Ps: had a dream abt him again, in the morning rite after he messaged me..Gosh im missing him a lot i guess..oh well

bogo-ship-poyo 1:31 pm

Wednesday 20 August 2008

Just came upon my friendster horoscope and was suprised to read it..it says:
"If a new relationship that has been picking up speed suddenly comes to a screeching halt, right now, don't worry! This is not a bad sign that means things are not going to work out between the two of you. It is merely a change, and you should not read anything into it. If communication doesn't pick up again in a few days, then it is perfectly reasonable for you to find out what's up. But don't freak out right away. You will send out desperate vibes, and that is not who you are."

it's kinda true thou..but at the same time, im trying my best to ''..take one step at a time''.
Jordin Sparks' latest single, 'One Step at a Time' is on my music playlist. it means a lot so im always reminded on wat im suppose to do, which is to take one step at a time !

he doesn't really believe in horoscopes but i like to read them cos sumtimes it can be so true u noe..so ya..

bogo-ship-poyo 8:45 pm

Monday 18 August 2008

omg !!
he's now like my guy bff..anything also wan to tell him..
to the extreme of telling him abt the dream i had abt himself !
haha..i only wanted to tell him tat he appeared in my dream..but then he kept probing me to tell more..so i told him..so embarassing till i could feel myself blushing sia..haha

thanks to him, im now thinking of a nickname for him and i hav one now..i hope no one calls him tat yet so tat its just btw me and him..^^ and he wans to call me susu also cos he likes milk !
sigh..my name is so common..wat other nicknames can he give me anyways rite ? cos its either susu or lala..

oh well..tat's it !
can't wait to meet the gang tomolo !
must dress up nice2 ah..

bogo-ship-poyo 10:09 pm

Sunday 17 August 2008

..friday..
after lunch time, he smsed me..(i kinda knew it was him so i was pretty excited when my phone vibrated) ^^ he wanted to call me later on during the day or nite. he insisted on telling me first cos he wouldn't wan to call at an inappropriate time u noe..
but..at midnight he wondered if i was still awake..only to tell me tat he's a bit busy so we can only tok on the phone on sum other day..:(

..saturday..
went out wif bff ! we just went reki2 (which means surverying). we reki sum phones cos she wans to find a new phone. tat got me excited too ! cos now i wan to change my phone as well..im waiting for my next pay b4 i can buy..looking forward to tat day !!
we didn't do anything much but tat's not the impt part. the impt part was being able to hang out wif ur best friend and just tok. i was happy to tell her everything abt him..^^ and at the same time knowing sum of her past r/s and experiences she had.

..today..
basically nuthing now except for one thing..
i CANNOT believe i actually dreamt of him..haha..when i least expect it.
once i wondered y i nvr dreamt of him. then i thot maybe bcos i haven see him in person so tats y..but i still dream of him anyways..
it was a great dream..tats all i can say..hehe

bogo-ship-poyo 1:15 pm

Thursday 14 August 2008

My colleague was on MC so i helped to finish up her stuffs and also do my daily stuffs..since im just a temp, i dun hav my own work space. there's one desk thou but no phone or computer, so tat sucks. so im sharing the space wif my colleague. Our desk is like a L-shaped so there's enuf space but our seats are damn big so it's pretty squeezy to move around.
Since she was on MC, i had the place to myself. I prefer myself actually..haha..cos i get to use msn instead of ebuddy when she's around. She's the perm staff so of course she gets the msn while i use the ebuddy.
Managed to watch the movie 'Eurotrip' during my lunchtime at a laptop wif our lunch kakis but not until the end thou. We only had less than 2 hrs of free time. The movie is hilarious at times. One of them laughed so hard, u cant help but laughed as well.

So last nite, i smsed him but for a short while cos i noe he had reservist on tat day and he shld be tired. I cant help but asked him on the reason y he decided to call me up..of course he said tat he wanted to ask me a question but another reason was so tat he could hear my voice, how i sound like u noe..^^
I nvr really thot abt it..abt wanting to hear how he sounds like. it was more of how nervous i would be and wat i shld say if we ever to talk on the phone..so ya
Our sms kinda ended halfway so i was expecting him to sms me the next day..
and he did! he gave me a morning message..hehe..^^

Cant wait for friday! go home at 6!

bogo-ship-poyo 8:44 pm

Wednesday 13 August 2008

Cant wait to meet up wif bff this sat.
She wants to go CWP to browse for phones.
Coincidentally, i thot of going there too. want to go singtel's outlet located there.

My work so far is fine. i really feel like im a PA to my colleague. Anything she wans me to zap, i zap. even ask me to help throw tissues at the rubbish bin..what the heck la...
anyway, its pretty slack in terms of the lunch time. Lunch time for the employees there is btw 12 to 2. so u can take ur lunch, maybe from 12 to 1, 1 to 2 etc..
but somehow, my lunch kakis and me would packet our lunch, eat at our workplace and chat all the way from 12 to 2. I kinda told my colleague abt it and she is SO aware of tat (coz she's one of the lunch kakis anyway..haha).
Anyway, even if i finish my lunch early, ill most probably be locked out of the office coz i dun hav the keys to the room. so then hav to wait for the rest to finish their lunch. so doesn't make any difference..
and we get to wear watever tat we like ! some wear shorts and slippers..and its fine by everyone.

ok, lets talk abt him..last nite, he wanted to talk to me over the phone for a short while..
at first i wasn't sure if the 'talk' means 'sms talk' or really talking over the phone..its the latter
it took me like 2 mins to say yes cos im not ready yet..
so was pretty anxious to hear how he sound like..he sounds great! haha
dunno how to react when he says, ''gud nite..take care..sweet dreams..'' ^^
anyway, after our short conversation, he smsed saying tat i have a nice cute voice..sigh..he's so cute u noe..thanks for the compliment ! hehe

cant wait to meet him in person! he asked when im free and it's a date for us! but im not sure which weekend thou but i noe it's within tis mth..

tat's it!

bogo-ship-poyo 8:31 pm

Tuesday 12 August 2008

he's not looking for luv yet..not now
he told me abt how he got his heart broken.
best friend cheats on his girlfriend of 4 years..
i told him abt how i've nvr been in a r/s before..
he told me how wonderful luv is..told me abt how wonderful his previous love was..
it breaks my heart knowing tat he's had a great long-term r/s wif someone but still ended up not being together..
which girl out there will finally be the 'one' for him?
i wanna hope it's me but it's no use just hoping cos nothing gonna come out of it..

bogo-ship-poyo 12:55 am

Monday 11 August 2008

i dunno wat to feel rite now..
so much tat i just got to noe from him..
i feel suprised, happy, sad..feel not worthy of him..
he's going overseas for 2 weeks (not yet) and i just felt like crying..
am i crazy to feel tis way when i haven even met him yet..
found out he has an interesting background while im just a normal next-door girl..
but he said tat everyone is different..he sure IS different than any other guy i noe..
in fact i noe him more than i ever noe abt other guys all together..
i cant stop crying now..its not just abt him..
im thinking abt how i nvr get to noe my maternal grandparents since they passed away even b4 im born.
im thinking abt how lonely my mum must have been, without her parents. She doesn't have tat many relatives now. Only her one sister tat i hav seen in picture.
im thinking abt how broken my family is..i haven tok to my 2nd bro for 8 years now..(believe it!)
i hav no idea how we nvr spoke in the first place.
i tink it has sumthing to do wif my parents' divorce and how many times she remarried again.
At one time, he was still living wif us..then he couldn't stand seeing some other father figure in the house..decided to stay wif my paternal grandparents' house.
he thot why me and my siblings did not follow him but he must understand tat we were a lot younger than he was..we were too young to understand anything..
well tat's MY version of the story..i'll nvr noe why he's not toking to us..

bogo-ship-poyo 9:15 pm

Sunday 10 August 2008

Sales went up a bit dijah ! haha..only she will noe wat im talking abt..
Suprisingly i woke up early tis morning, like around 8.30am.
I kept waking up a few times in between my sleep coz my mind was pretty alert
(from last nite ^^ )..
im glad i was being myself and honest to wat i was feeling..

"..tats nice 2 noe girl.." in exact words

gosh..it was really hard for me to log off..wanted so much to stay online..

all these feelings inside me..just wanted to burst it out !
so i kinda told my mum abt him. showed her his pic as well.
she always assumed tat any guy tat i like would be a chinese guy coz long long ago, once upon a time in sec skool, i showed her my graduation photo of me and tis other guy tat i used to hav a crush on.
tat's long ago mum..cant believe she remembered tat..
i guess i just wan to share everything wif my only mum !

bogo-ship-poyo 4:00 pm

Saturday 9 August 2008

Happy National Day guys !!
sigh..too bad dun hav tickets to go there..
i wanna go someday..

well..since mon i start work, i had to shop for more clothes and stuffs. the good thing is that i need not wear formal clothes. so can wear like plain t-shirts and jeans. but my direct boss kinda told me to at least not wear jeans for my 1st day of work. first impression counts rite..?
i wonder if i can wear sandals but i dun tink i shld take things for granted..so i bought a pair of shoe ! haha
there's still some sales going on, so i managed to buy stuffs at a discount..yeah !

bogo-ship-poyo 7:44 pm

Tuesday 5 August 2008

i got a job as admin asst @ Buona Vista. near there actually but still hav to take bus to go there. im starting next mon ! but only temp until the end of the year.

i asked bff if i am crazy..she nvr answer my qn but nvr mind..haha

rite now, me and him..we hav moved on to sms. Kinda ask me for my no. last sat, and i was so suprised when he suddenly sms me on mon nite..coz i was expecting him to do so like maybe immediately after he got my no..haha

so i'm really happy the way things are..sounds too gud to be true for me..but we c how..

ciao!

bogo-ship-poyo 7:58 pm

Sunday 3 August 2008

am i crazy or am i crazy ?
is it possible to love somebody when u only noe them like for 2 months ?
nvr had this feeling b4..tis is nervewrecking guys !!

please can somebody enlighten me ?

bogo-ship-poyo 2:07 am

Saturday 2 August 2008

i hav a job interview for admin assistant coming up this coming tuesday.
hopefully everything goes smoothly..

so planned to meet bff on sun but turns out tat she's free today so on the spot meet her after her work ended at 1..
we thot abt the same place to go to that is to go bugis!
i have some money now, so the more excited i was abt shopping !

ate at swensen then proceed to shop !
in the end, i bought 2 tops, 2 belts, and a legging.

we stopped at Starbucks coffee..(i kept saying, 'Starhub' instead of Starbucks, which was funny lor)..while chatting, then got excited when we saw helicopters, and red parachutes wif red smokes. today was also one of the days of ndp preview.

so we walked from bugis to suntec city to marina bay and caught a glimpse of fighter jets doing their thing. i was excited abt the heart shape that 2 fighter jets are going to do, and we managed to stand at the right place at the right time !!
and of course i took a photo of it..
happy tat i get to see all these up close, for the first time !

so looking forward to seeing fireworks, which is happening in 2 weeks time i tink..

bogo-ship-poyo 10:59 pm