Friday 24 October 2008

my bro came back home from camp today !! He came back like around 7 plus when i was lying on my bed wif my mp3 player .. he look so diff la .. not skinnier but even bulkier cos of more muscles esp on his upper body .. and darker .. and rounder face .. haha .. was kinda not used to looking at him after not seeing him for 2 weeks liao ..

next mon will be going to my auntie house at sengkang ! tat means i can also see my cute fav cousin, aiman !! i told my bro abt it and im glad he said tat he wans to tag along as well .. the more the merrier !

okay some other updates : since im working part time now and hav been working there for more than 2 mths now, i Might be considered to work there full time .. not exactly doing the same stuffs like im doing now .. cos then i would be under a diff dept (what if only la) .. if i do get the job, i will be moving wif the rest to our new office .. i want to still work there actually .. i've made wonderful friends there and its a waste if the friendship shld just stop halfway u noe .. wish me luck guys !!

another update : a few days ago i chatted wif him .. tats cos his msn nick was stating sumthing tat made me wan to ask him .. he was sorta angry abt sumthing .. i wasn't sure so tats why i asked him if he was alright .. he said he was fine but then the 'dot dot dot' after tat .. it was obvious tat he wasn't fine ! then he told me wat's bothering him .. its a sad thing tat his trip to vietnam for a course tat he's taking has been extended from 2 weeks to a month or even more .. and he's gonna be there alone .. i wish there was sumthing tat i cld do or say to make him feel less worse .. and he's taking off nov 10 .. he wont be online for a mth ! but was the diff anyway .. we nvr really chat everyday anymore .. oh well ..

bogo-ship-poyo 10:18 pm

Wednesday 15 October 2008

hi all !!
haha .. everytime after i come back from work, im straightaway on my com .. im watching lesser and lesser tv nowadays .. its funny how last time im totally the opposite of tat .. would always stick in front of the tv, channel surfing ..

like there's more interesting thing to do on the net than watching tv .. and there is actually ! haha .. at first i was hooked into this korean girlband, 'Wonder Girls' .. so i watched their music videos and anywhere else, like shows tat they appeared in .. coincidentally, there's another korean boyband called, 'Super Junior' .. a few of the members (out of 13!) appeared in the same show as well .. they are funny and now im hooked on them instead ! have most of their songs .. but most importantly was watching them in many shows .. they like to do a lot of entertainment shows .. and they are all hilarious ! so now my friend is hooked too cos we watched an episode together and the rest is history ..

tat's it ! Basically what i would do when im at home ..

bogo-ship-poyo 10:05 pm

Thursday 9 October 2008

today was my bro's first day enlisted to camp .. couldn't follow him so my elder bro send him using his bike.. wont be seeing him until 2 weeks later i tink .. one time at work, i receive an sms from my elder bro .. he actually took a pic from far of my bro standing in line with the rest of the ppl .. and he also stated, 'the last pic of him wif hair' ..

it sounded funny but i immediately felt like crying .. didn't cry tat much la .. cos im at work place sia .. later they thot y im crying .. even b4 tat, when i was chatting online and was toking abt my bro's 1st day in camp, my eyes were a bit teary .. i didn't noe i wld feel tis way .. like so sad tat he's away .. but of course he'll be back, no worries ..

tml will be celebrating my colleague's bday .. its the one tat has the same name as me .. haa .. finally someone's bday tat i can celebrate together wif .. cos theres been a lot of celebrations of my colleagues' bdays tis last few months .. but i wasn't close to some of them .. so i felt like i was left out actually .. haa ya .. so im gonna wear a bit nicer tml .. cos im sure there's some photos being taken on tat day .. hee

tats it ! hav to cook maggi today :(

bogo-ship-poyo 9:31 pm

Tuesday 7 October 2008

its easier when i hav tat mindset now .. not tat im completely ignoring him (cant make myself do tat ) .. its just tat now i noe wat to and not to expect .. u noe .. so tat i wont be disappointed all the time ..

and recently, i start to add guys in my msn .. just guys tat i noe thru tagged.com .. when i hav friend requests, i still pick and choose which ones i wanna accept and reject .. but i nvr really view their profile .. then i wld gladly entertain them if they ever leave messages on the site .. if they do, i wld reply them and stuffs .. if i feel interested to noe them better and they wanna add me in msn, then i allowed them to hav my email add .. so far only 4 guys la ..

please dun make me sound like im desperate .. i really just wanna make more online friends ! if im bored, i actually hav ppl to chat wif online sia .. esp at home .. out of tis 4, one of them nvr starts any conversatn wif me yet (dunno if he noes tat ive added him ) and another only makes short conversatn sey .. so boring .. another always asks the same things .. but tis latest one tat i just added today was fine! suprised tat we chatted so easily .. he sounded friendly but not cheeky kind .. almost sounded cheeky when he asked for my contact no at the end .. but i didn't give duh .. definitely will chat more wif him ..

and suprisingly today, he (the original one .. haa) chatted wif me online just now, after i reached home .. he wasn't online at all when i was at work .. even if he's gonna be online at nite, i nvr thot he wld still chat wif me .. but he did which is gud !
got to clarify sumthing wif him .. and tat is, am i considered disturbin him if i chatted wif him even when his current status is 'busy' ? he said no .. fuh .. thank goodness ..
cos he was 'busy' when he started the conversatn .. then i thot if he was busy but he wasn't .. he told me tat he just dun wan 'other' ppl to disturb him .. tats y i pop the qn to him ..
and obviously if he still wan to chat wif me even thou he's 'busy', tat means he's not .. cos he noes tat i wont disturb him if he's really busy ..

well tats it ! sori if im being long-winded today .. i wonder y .. haa

bogo-ship-poyo 11:20 pm

Friday 3 October 2008

today i've been doing a lot of thinking ..
cos during lunch, it was just us girls .. somehow they were toking abt r/s stuffs ..
one of my colleagues asked me if im attached .. dunno how to answer her ..
but i told them bits of it .. like how he's not ready for a r/s ..
immediately they told me to forget abt him ..
everyone's been saying tat !!
and at the same time, they were toking abt woman's gut instinct ..
then i was thinkin .. im not sure how a gut feeling in a woman shld feel like .. cos rite now, im doing the exact opposite of wat ppl are telling me to do .. that is to forget abt him who's not into a r/s yet .. the more i wan to NOT forget abt him .. u noe .. so now im thinkin whther wat im doing is gut instinct or just plain stubborness/not facing reality ..

so i've come to a conclusion .. i shld actually follow wat ppl are saying cos they are more experienced than me .. so rite now, me and him .. we're just friends. Im not gonna sms him all the time anymore .. so i need ur guys' support now .. remind me tat .. hee

bogo-ship-poyo 7:20 pm

Wednesday 1 October 2008

Selamat hari raya to all my muslim friends !!
i thot i hav nothing to look forward too tis yr but it was still great !
1st day of raya .. at home .. we waited for our half-bro to come b4 we can start the forgiveness session .. haa .. we waited for quite some time and my bro was getting impatient of waiting ..
all he wanted to do was just get to our grandma's house as early as possible ..
we took some pics which i hav posted on friendster AND facebook .. haa .. im happy just us 5 u noe .. althou it wld be great if it could be a complete family .. wif my dad & my elder bro ..
tis yr .. i didn't care abt colour coordination .. sis wearing cream+green, bro wearing blue, and i was wearing black .. when we came to our grandma's house, most were in blue, green and purple .. i wasn't the only one in black thou .. somehow my elder bro was in black as well ! toking abt affinity ..

sigh .. tell me how im suppose to feel if he's always being matchmade (twice now !) each time he and his family visits his relatives' house ...?
i dunno whether to laugh or get jealous or even worst, worry to e extent tat he might just get stolen from me (thou he's not mine la) .. u noe .. from being single to suddenly being taken .. just mixed feelings rite now ..

oh well .. our extended family will be roaming the whole of singapore on a bus this sunday! meeting at my grandma's house 10am sharp ! althou some will come later as usual .. haha .. im gonna wear pink ! cant wait !

ps: was happy when one of my aunts commented tat i looked chubbier ! hee .. unlike the usual comments each yr (so skinny la .. so tall la .. )

pps: weigh myself at grandma's house .. and im still at 45kg .. sigh .. can i ever gain anymore ..

bogo-ship-poyo 10:16 pm