Saturday 27 September 2008

i haven't blog for quite some time le .. why not ? cos there's really nothing happening tat i can blog abt ..
its funny how my previous blog entries were all almost daily .. and were all abt him ..
there's been some slow progression btw me and him .. cos he's busy (really..) dun tink of it as an excuse ..
we only sms each other only .. and are all short ones .. even replying my smses wld be a busy thing for him ..
i miss chatting wif him online .. cos its only online tat he's able to give me a 'rose' each time we ended off ..
i miss hearing his voice .. even if we talked for a few mins on the phone, i treasured every min of it .. wished tat i cld have recorded them .. then i cld just listen to his voice if i miss him ..

thurs nite .. after hanging out wif poly friends, i told myself tat i shld stop messaging him .. but earlier on tat nite i smsed him .. we smsed for a short while .. on the way home in the bus, i did a lot of thinking .. i let fate decide for me .. i didn't reply anymore to his last sms .. then i told myself : if he still sms me by tonite or at least by early morning, then i wld tink tat we still hav a chance ..

i was suprised tat he did message me at 4 plus in the morning .. he told me tat he's sorry tat he's been busy .. like wat i told bff, i was happy enuf tat he made the effort to 'tell' me tat .. at least i felt tat he was still interested in tis r/s .. so yah .. gotta hav some patience and faith and hope !

hopefully when the weekends over, he wouldn't be as busy as he is still ! i wan the normal him again !

bogo-ship-poyo 12:57 am

Friday 19 September 2008

its friday ..
i feel really fine today ! was not suppose to actually .. since i was pretty emo tis morning .. reach workplace, took the lift wif my other colleagues and i happened to b listening to a loud rock song (linkin park btw..) .. was not suprised tat my colleagues were nudging me since everyone inside the lift cld hear how loud i was listening to the song .. haha .. but i couldn't care less ..

today in the office, most of them was out of the office by 3pm .. left me and the ceo .. i was the last person and was responsible to lock up the door .. happy cos i get to leave earlier than norm .. around 5.45pm ..

today also my stomach wasn't giving me any probs .. very unusual of my stomach today .. very obedient .. usually it will give me so much pain, wif lots of air in my stomach .. the awful feeling of hunger side effects .. but none of tat at all !

so tat concludes why i was feeling fine today ! and it has nothing to do wif him for the 1st time .. haha .. tats gud for once ..

tats it ! have a great weekend everybody !

bogo-ship-poyo 8:22 pm

Tuesday 16 September 2008

tis morning, just as i woke up to eat .. he messaged me ! his turn now.. haha .. i wonder, if i had not smsed him yesterday morning .. would he still sms me anyways ? well i dunno either .. tats why its a wonder .. u dun necessarily need to noe the answer ..

anyway, when he smsed me, i didn't hear it cos my phone's speaker would start acting up once in a while .. it vibrated on my bed .. so it was only after i ate then i checked my phone .. he told me once tat he doesn't sleep at nite .. its only after he ate in the early morning around 5.30am then he would go to sleep .. so tat means we couldn't sms tat long as both of us would wan to sleep .. wished tat i had checked my phone sooner or tat my phone shld stop acting up again at a crucial time !

but its okay .. there's always other days rite .. speaking of days, tml is already gonna be the next half of the week ! time flies .. not sure wat to look forward to actually ..

bogo-ship-poyo 9:20 pm

Monday 15 September 2008

last nite i was online most of the time .. he only started to appear online very late at nite .. i wasn't sure wat to do .. whether to start a conversatn or not .. cos im sure he has a lot of ppl to entertain online .. its not just me u noe ..
maybe i was waiting for him to be free enuf to 'layan' me instead .. but i was already sleepy .. it was 2 am by then ! My tired mind eventually beat my heart's desire and so i logged off .. its a waste to log off knowing tat he's online .. he's so near yet so far ..
woke up early in the morning for my early breakfast (since im fasting). he's always on my mind the very first thing when i woke up .. so when i finished eating and was settling down to sleep (or not, since 2hrs later i hav to wake up again) .. my heart wanted so much to let him noe tat i existed, tat i hope im not being forgotten by him but my mind was telling me tat he might not wan to 'layan' anyone esp me since maybe he might still be in his emo mood .. THIS time however, the heart overcame the mind .. and so i smsed him ! And he's okay i tink .. like i said previously, he's back to normal entertaining me like he always do .. wish tat we could tok on the phone soon .. miss his voice ..

bogo-ship-poyo 11:49 pm

Sunday 14 September 2008

meet up wif bff which was fun ..
i get to tok to her abt him and she get to tok abt tis new guy tat she noe to me !
i managed to get my mp3 player ! got the Zen Mosaic Pink .. so excited abt it .. dijah was almost tempted to get one .. haha ..
i like tat i get to put photos in it and using them as wallpaper .. so i noe exactly wat to place as my wallpaper .. luved it ! ^^
yay .. i get to sleep as long as i wan on sun !

one more thing ..
he's emoing now (abt sumthing serious) and i told him tat if he needs to tok or anything, tat im there for him .. but i also told him tat he might just wan to b alone wif no disturbance .. but its hard not being able to sms him and stuff .. but dijah encouraged me and i tried my luck .. i smsed him and thot tat he might not reply me at all .. but he did ! and he didn't 'sound' sad or emo and im glad tat he was being his normal self, 'laughing' when he replies my messages ^^

i hope ur fine now ..

bogo-ship-poyo 12:51 am

Friday 12 September 2008

yay its friday .. thot i had nothing much to do at work .. one of the colleague caught me browsing a magz when i only started reading it a few mins .. she was lecturing me in a friendly way .. all i cld do was just agree wif her .. " ya .. i noe .. cannot read when the big bosses are around .. " then she was suggesting some work tat i cld help do for their a/cs dept .. im admin asst not admin cum accounts .. gud thing i did not hav to do wat she suggested me to do .. ended up doing sumthing tat i was supposed to start yesterday when i was told not to do it by person A .. then still had to do it anyways by person B .. they shld hav a system around there u noe .. cant stand diff ppl telling me diff things .. was doing the task the whole day without a break .. yup not even my lunch break when i cld hav used it to try to get sum sleep .. i was told to finish it up by the end of the day so tats why i was rushing it .. but it was then 6 .. time for me to end work .. the rest were telling me to stop and go home and continue it on mon .. found out tat i still can finish it up by mon .. if i knew, i wouldn't hav rush it .. but the gud thing is tat i wont hav too much left to finish on mon !

oh well .. cant wait to meet up wif bff tis sat .. gonna do sum shopping !!

bogo-ship-poyo 11:14 pm

Thursday 11 September 2008

somehow i feel like i shld update .. haha .. so here goes !

tuesday nite met up wif the gang to celebrate Joc's 21st bday !!
too bad i dun hav any of the pics yet ..
i got to tell them abt the juicy stuffs from my date .. heee
of course LF knew more abt it in adv than the rest .. was actually excited to tell them !
But now, i feel like i shld stop .. haahhaa .. i scared i wld eventually be the one tat's tired abt toking abt him ..
i asked my BFF if she's bored of me toking abt him ALL the time ! but she was all the more happy to noe tat im happy so she dun mind .. thanks babe 4 being SOo understanding .. muacks !

honestly .. since the date (which was on sun), i couldn't stop thinkin abt it for 3 days in a row now .. esp when i hav nothing else to do when i am at work .. so yah ..

our r/s is not as simple as everyone thinks or wat i made it seemed like to them ..
he's still tryin to get over losing his ex of 4 yrs and losing his best friend (since both betrayed him).
tis mth happens to b a yr after the incident .. but like wat i told LF, i hav faith in our r/s ..
always hav faith .. :)

bogo-ship-poyo 1:09 am

Monday 8 September 2008

okay .. tis time our date happened ! finally .. i was being superstitious abt it .. got excited and told everyone tat i hav a date and turns out tat it was cancelled .. really didn't wan tat to happen again so i kept quiet abt it ..

we were supposed to meet at vivo .. i didn't noe tat he was gonna be late .. so once i reach harbourfront, i kept looking at random guys and was scared to accidentally bumped into him .. was pretty nervous to c him unprepared u noe ..

i couldn't just stand and wait so i walked around vivo .. wanted to buy something .. and just so happen the shop was just outside GV .. so it was convenient for me .. he called saying tat he will be late a bit and so i bought the tickets first .. we watched, 'My Sassy Girl' .. love tat movie .. i was laughing when no one was .. haha ..


after tat, we went to find somewhere to eat ! i was quiet at the start .. it was definitely awkward .. sori .. i had to lie to u when i say i wasn't but i was ! saying tat its awkward will only make things worst .. so y bother saying .. anyway, from the start he told me tat he's having his flu again .. so when we were eating, he had no appetite but still managed to finish up his food ..

i was a bit more relaxed after tat .. then we were figuring out on wat to do after dinner .. and wat else but just talking .. we sat outside at the top floor of vivo .. its expected tat i wld see so many other couples there .. so it was really weird to b there .. but we settled down somewhere .. i was quiet cos i dunno wat else to ask since i've asked him a lot for the past 3 mths ! haha..

it was easier when he decides to ask or he tells the story himself .. since he's the talker and im the listener ! i was being totally honest wif him .. like how tis is the first date for me .. and he already noe b4 tis tat i dun hav a bf b4 .. so u can imagine how he was wif me .. was disturbing me all the way .. like im such a greenhorn as they say .. and im not gonna blog abt the rest of it .. TMI .. but b4 we went off, he gave me a kiss on the cheek ^^ miss him already ..

bogo-ship-poyo 8:32 pm

Saturday 6 September 2008

i feel like getting a mp3 player .. i noe im a bit slow but i can get them cheap now as compared to when they were just released .. watever the brand i dun mind as long as got a wide screen, light-weight, lotsa memory and at reasonable price .. i hav a budget of less than $100 ..

im just sick of using my hp as my music player .. need more space for my phone .. if i wanna get a mp3 player, i hav to forgo buying a new hp or 2nd-hand ones .. tat can wait, until my phone contract ends ..

im excited abt shopping for one rite now !! but i dun hav anyone to accompany me .. if can, i wanna do it tis weekend .. anyone free to do some surveying wif me ?

bogo-ship-poyo 12:07 am

Friday 5 September 2008

i almost thot i couldn't blog !
so weird .. couldn't access my dashboard .. then my bro just came back home and helped to press the refresh button many many times and it worked ! haha

wed late nite he was online but i was abt to log off .. waited for him to start the conversation but he didn't .. so ignored and shut down the com .. sad rite ..

so today at around 8pm, i was comtemplating whether to be online or not .. i assumed he wont be online so early .. but he was ! Just as soon as i was online, he chatted wif me ! We talked crap .. haha .. haven tok abt our date yet .. u noe wat, im NOT gonna say anything abt the date until it has happened .. who noes if it will just be another failed one .. sigh ..

ok la .. very sleepy .. gud nite !

bogo-ship-poyo 12:30 am

Monday 1 September 2008

monday was fun at work .. most of the colleagues were done clearing their annual leave so i could c almost all of them for the 1st time !
had to give out SPH newsletters to almost everyone ! like im a newspaper girl carrying tat whole stack .. even one of them dunno me at all cos he was away when i started and only came back today .. so paiseh lor ..

haha .. one of my colleagues looked so tired and fatigue while i was so hyper-actived and both of us are fasting as well ! i wasn't sleepy in the morning i guess .. and i was happy cos i got a new haircut wahaha..

during lunch break, me and aliah just hanged out at the purple area (lounge) and read some mags. its a gud thing to b workin at a publication co. cos got free mags to read!

i got used to wat im supposed to do .. like when 2 of my colleagues r going to b interviewing a candidate, i took the initiative to book a meeting room..^^
and i also wanted to help do some of the stuffs once i knew how to do it .. just wanna b busy2 !
but not so busy tat i wld stress la..

they had a HR meeting and we ordered 100 ice cream cones for everyone ! all was suppose to go for tis meeting except me cos im just a temp .. but the best part was at the end of the meeting when all were eating ice creams ! i noe i cannot eat but we were able to bring home one!
i accidentally touch the dry ice .. cos the remaining ice creams were below it !
its weird .. the dry ice being so cold yet the hot painful feeling when it comes in contact wif ur skin .. but the pain was still bearable.. happy mood all around .. the big bosses wld go, ''..come take2 ice cream.." haha
but after tat, around 4 or so .. everyone's quiet cos everyone's sleepy .. haha

speaking of which .. im kinda sleepy now .. the heavy eyelids r killing me !

ok nite nite ..

ps: get well soon !

bogo-ship-poyo 11:25 pm