Monday, 11 August 2008

i dunno wat to feel rite now..
so much tat i just got to noe from him..
i feel suprised, happy, sad..feel not worthy of him..
he's going overseas for 2 weeks (not yet) and i just felt like crying..
am i crazy to feel tis way when i haven even met him yet..
found out he has an interesting background while im just a normal next-door girl..
but he said tat everyone is different..he sure IS different than any other guy i noe..
in fact i noe him more than i ever noe abt other guys all together..
i cant stop crying now..its not just abt him..
im thinking abt how i nvr get to noe my maternal grandparents since they passed away even b4 im born.
im thinking abt how lonely my mum must have been, without her parents. She doesn't have tat many relatives now. Only her one sister tat i hav seen in picture.
im thinking abt how broken my family is..i haven tok to my 2nd bro for 8 years now..(believe it!)
i hav no idea how we nvr spoke in the first place.
i tink it has sumthing to do wif my parents' divorce and how many times she remarried again.
At one time, he was still living wif us..then he couldn't stand seeing some other father figure in the house..decided to stay wif my paternal grandparents' house.
he thot why me and my siblings did not follow him but he must understand tat we were a lot younger than he was..we were too young to understand anything..
well tat's MY version of the story..i'll nvr noe why he's not toking to us..

bogo-ship-poyo 9:15 pm